Oh, Rayo. Trust me, I understand what that feels like. I came on to Hive to make music. I found writing along the way to be somewhat exhilarating, but I had a hard time getting used to it. Fast forward two years, I do it everyday now as a full-time Hiver. I'm glad you see the bigger picture so early. I take it that it's in the genes. @lizizoo is just as resilient.
Happy New year!