let there be ink

meditations (59)in The LIFESTYLE LOUNGE • 4 years ago

I'm worn down, beaten down, and tired. I fear that if I don't start making meaningful changes in my life I will fall into the grave clinching onto something that is not me, was never me. I fear that I'v spent too much time playing it safe not because I feared rejection or failure but because I constantly put other's desires in front of my own. each one another weight on my back and shoulders until the pain caused by this weight leaves a lasting pain deep within my body, mind, and soul.

and the time lost.... that hurts the most.

but not all is as bleak as I make it out to be, It is my life after all. The same opportunities may not be there anymore and the time may be lost but I ALWAYS have the say in how I move forward.

So forward I march into the unknown. I march back into the world of art and creation. A world I dipped my toes in when younger years were plentiful and free, a world I drank myself out of and, allowed others to divy up my time into their ambitions.

**At the beginning **

I'm treating this as a day one newbi. Building a strong foundation of the fundamentials and finding my way from there. Where will I go? what will I create? I don't know. Something, anything, everything.

I posted a few of my early sketches. I used a combination of a fine liner pen, a charcoal pencil and a regular HB pencil.

It is my intention moving forward to post my work here on Hive as I progress and hon my style and prefered mediums.

The best thing is about creating art is not only do I get to create something that was not here before but nomatter terrable a drawing may be the process of creating and drawing and painting is still the best anti depressent I have ever found.

I have more to say. and will so in future posts but for now I am off to create and to pay attention to what it is I am trying to tell myself about who I could be if only I shut up and listen.

~meditations~

#art #creating #drawing #palnet #life #thoughts

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bigtom13 (68) 4 years ago

Wow. I actually really like the sketches and look forward to what comes next.

Your sketches of the cone reminded me of something that a friend and I once did. We figured out the mathematics for measuring the volume in a double truncated cone. A common beer schooner. Most would say wasted time, but I didn't think so...

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meditations (59) 4 years ago

thanks much - seems like a good use of time to me 😁

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inalittlewhile (68) 4 years ago

Ahh. The hole in the donut. All that hard work of clearing the past proved to me that none of my time was wasted. Even as I was wasted in the bottom of a bottle.

It will go wasted, however, unless I continue to share my experiences with others. Seems like that's what you're doing to me and on a more self caring path.

Thanks for sharing. It's not always easy.

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meditations (59) 4 years ago

Another good part about art is all the past termoil can be good foder and fuel to help heal wounds.

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brittandjosie (76) 4 years ago

I feel the struggle can I be of help

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