Very sorry to read all of this @jaynie, but ... Not surprised. I stopped writing my COVID-19 posts, as they were starting to feel a bit like "broken records." I kept saying (starting in March) that what the "Almighty" States around the world were doing was wrong. And that we were only in the very, very early stages of finding out what's coming, as a result ...
As requested. Reblogged. May God watch over you and yours in the weeks to come, as you wrestle with what you will ultimately choose to do in response to all you have written here.