A few thoughts as the year is slowly beginning to draw a close
I don't know if everyone feels this way, but I find that as we get older, we worry more and more. Maybe that's not the case for everyone, but in my case, at least, I can clearly see it happening. Others may feel differently, depending on what they have achieved and built up so far.
Of course, the decisions we make in life influence our future. And when I look back, I don't really want to grumble that much. Sure, there are things I could have done differently in hindsight, but I don't want to complain about what I've done (perhaps wrongly) in my life so far.
Ultimately, that's exactly why I am where I am now. And I feel quite comfortable here. But unfortunately, I realize that I can't stay here forever. The changes are long overdue, and some of them have already happened. It's not entirely clear where I'm heading, and besides some advantages, all of the options have quite a few disadvantages.
Well, many of us may feel this way, and I'm probably not the only one in this situation. But still, I'm thinking a lot about where and how I can spend the rest of my life.
In the end, as always, everything depends on finances. And that's where things sometimes fall short. Am I poor? No, I'm not. Do I have some money? Yes, I do. Do I have enough money? No, I definitely don't. And that's what worries me about the future. Especially since I don't know where and how I will be able to continue earning a living.
To be honest, my adventure in the crypto sector has not really been a success so far. As with many others, some of my investments were total failures. Others, on the other hand, did not perform too badly, but in most cases it seems that after a brief period of hope, everything is brutally destroyed again. Once it goes up, it goes down twice as far later on. Somehow, you find yourself back at the beginning of the road, and it doesn't look like my efforts will ever be rewarded.
The excitement is over, and my hopes have been dashed. I don't really want to give up and let go; but at the moment, I lack the energy and ideas for where to go instead.
I know that complaining doesn't help much, and I'm not sure if anyone here will even read these lines. But sometimes it's quite liberating to just let your thoughts out and put them into words. Somehow it helps to clear your head and can even lead to a new beginning.
So this wasn't any kind of review of this year yet, that might come a little later. But when I look back on the past few months, I can already say that, despite all the many hurdles that slowed me down and perhaps even set me back, it has been a good year. And I'm aware of that, so it's usually not difficult for me to be in a good mood. And hopefully, this good mood will help me in those moments when the worries take over again.
So I prefer to enjoy the patch of blue sky on the horizon and simply ignore the big dark clouds directly above me. And I am looking forward to the moment when the sun comes out again....
