Reflections of a poet
Absent light glow in the darkness of my room,
far from sleeping and disturbed by silence,
invaded by the sad memories of my heart.
Loneliness is an undesirable companion,
visits me every day without invitation,
without any kind of embarrassment
enters unannounced and settles down around me,
plays with my mind and incites me to pain.
It describes to me a world of suffering, anger and resentment,
Better to be alone than in the company of worthless people,
that thought causes me despair
and makes my tranquility an intense frustration.
A constant battle nestled in my brain,
an infinite war that consumes me little by little.
I look around me and get lost in the void,
Four walls are not enough to contain my moan.
I hear crying in the room and I wake up lost,
bewildered by the quietness of the early morning,
I think for a moment what I have become,
a lonely soul, abandoned and submerged in oblivion.
Will a chamomile tea calm this anxiety?
A tranquilizer may be more effective,
but of so many I have taken I feel numb
and I still hear those strange sounds.
I see people around me and hear voices everywhere,
Am I losing my mind or am I hallucinating without knowing?
I'm afraid to live, I'm under a lot of pressure,
I just want to rest and stop feeling despair.
I need a way out soon, I need to reverse the situation,
I must remove from my house anyone who disturbs my emotion,
No matter what it takes, my mental health comes first,
I've had enough of getting away from the world and from sincere friends.
I will need allies who will allow me to win the war,
loyal soldiers capable of taking up arms without fear,
faithful friends who surround me with their company and affection,
and a crew that does not abandon the ship in the face of the storm.
In this way I will be able to overcome my fears and move away from loneliness,
I will be able to fall asleep and my peace of mind will return,
my life will be filled with brightness and my room will be illuminated,
I will never be alone again and my head will stop hallucinating.
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What a beautiful, heart felt poem. I understnad that feeling of loneliness and despair, yet not wanting to be with people at all, because they cause me to feel even more lonely. How wonderful to see a poem for a mental health exploration - sometimes they are even better than prose as they truly capture the essence of what the subject feels. Much love and gratitude.
Thanks, I'm glad you liked it. Certainly even when accompanied the loneliness is usually more noticeable. In my case it's the same, however the feeling of missing the family every day becomes stronger, especially my children.
Beautifully and truthfully expressed. Wow! Intense yet real.