You're right, my decision is an act of blindly believing what has been communicated to me.
I do not obtain the skills necessary to perform blockchain forensics, nor is it a desire of mine as a financially struggling artist currently learning a new (very complicated and time consuming) trade.
If that isn't selfish enough of me, I'm also struggling to pay bills and eat, but have been leaving my resources in the Hive blockchain as much as I can to help others in the community who may or may not be having the same struggles in life as myself.
Sorry to make this so personal @acidyo but I'm not sure if all aspects are always considered when these blockchain politics get amped up and people like myself get pulled into it.
At least I'm being transparent with my decisions here, that has to count for something in pertaining to how easily I seem to disappoint people. Seems to be the story of my fucking life.
I spent 2 hours processing your 1 line response to me while waking up. My brain is like a slow processor that gets stuck in loop sometimes. Maybe there's a virus in it. That's just a poorly placed joke I guess, trying to lighten the mood a bit..
What do you propose I do?
I'm flirting with the idea of voting no witness. This would probably disappoint people too.
Maybe I should put my projects, goals, and personal problems on hold for a few days while I try to play blockchain scientist.
Maybe there's more going on beneath the surface here that I don't know about. After all, you've always treated me with kindness and respect.
PS. Thank you kindly for sending those old OCD curator rewards, and for kindly welcoming me back to the blockchain.
Hi, sorry to hear you're not doing well financially. I respect that you're keeping assets here for long term but if you're in need then you should use them and look into being more active here if you can. I'm in the same boat and wish I could stay staked more.
I'm just baffled that people blindly trust others with their witness proxy or who to vote and unvote, felt especially bad knowing you've been part of OCD and may have an idea of what we do around the chain aside from just producing blocks.
It's not hard to see that this user cross-posted a post of mine attempting to derade my character saying I stand for follow4follow when I clearly said in the post it's regarding web2 which I don't care about as long as it helps Hive get more traction. His actions were fueled by discussions in other posts talking about downvotes and censorship which we had decent discussions with the author of them and I'm sure he himself wouldn't approve of this kind of post here. It's like they want to punish those who speak their mind while other witnesses are just inactive collecting rewards.
Thank you for responding @acidyo,
I'm sorry to hear you're in the same boat and having some struggles. I hope things quickly get better for you.
I'm going to do what I should have done to begin with and take a deep look at everything. I'll be studying the responses in this post as well, as I see there is quite a bit going on here. I know the politics/perception here greatly vary in regards to what is considered abuse of the platform, and what is considered suppression free speech. I imagine it becomes very exhausting when managing these aspects at a higher level.
I very much enjoyed my time as a curator for OCD, and certainly know the intentions were always to support good content in an unbiased manner. I even remember the process utilized to pick posts, and found it to be a very fair way to choose.
It was a bummer for me to come to terms with the fact that I am just not great with consistency and did not make a great curator. I did my best, but in the end I just had to keep it real and say "I think I'm the weak link here.." :D
Sorry for blindly acting without thinking it through very much, you're certainly right that's exactly what I did. We all make mistakes sometimes, and I feel it's what we do to correct our mistakes in life, and what we do today which defines our character.
Have a nice rest of your day.