Dear friend @neumannsalva
We are human, and we always have this kind of fight with our mind, which many times wants to make us feel bad!!! Not all days are good, some are meant to be dark and that's ok, embrace our darkness, accept that it is part of our personality. You are fantastic in everything you do and I find you so much fun!!!! In short it's a mind trap talking to you. Around here they say the mind is either our best friend or our worst enemy. Something about what are we going to feed if the angel or the devil?
Like you at the beginning of the year I was immersed in a very dark situation and constantly thinking about death .... My death! I felt that I was very close to leave this plane. One day, with all the pain I was in, I decided to invite all the demons living inside me to tea, to recognize and accept them... then everything got better little by little.
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Oh wow. I nearly had some tears in my eyes, your words really touched me. I know that you are right that darkness must have a part in our lives, but sometimes I find it extremely hard to accept this truth. And you are also right to call my negative thinking a trap. On good days I can clearly see und understand this trap, but on a bad day I blindly run into it. Perhaps I eventually will learn to be aware of this cycle...
But I did not knew you were at such a bad place health wise. I am so sorry. Fearing for ones own life is the worst. I am so glad that you are better today and if you ever want to whine a bit feel free to write me <3 <3
Thank you so much for your encouraging words and for sharing your own story.
Sending a big hug.
hahahahaha @neumannsalva I already know to knock on your door and complain to you... hahahaha complaint department !!!!
You know it's a good therapy, to have a friend to tell our sorrows, sadness and incompressions.... We can form a club hahaha .... A big hug, you can also complain here in this department, you just have to knock on the door jajaja