Hello Alice, wish you have a nice day today.
I am sorry for what happened to you and your family. My family corrupted when I was 12 years old, and yes I heard two voices shouting at each other day by day. Unlike you, I kept myself away from that seemingly non-existing pain without noticing my ignorance had let it creeped into my veins real slow. I have just known that for this time around, but I guess it's a bit too late to cure or find my way out of it.
So Alice, it was not your fault, or yourself to be blamed on. Sometimes things have to happen in the way we would never think there would be another worse, but all of them mean certain lessons in life. I know it's so hard and weird to accept everything and blame nobody (that's why ourselves is the easiest choice), yet your pain is enough. You know it too. Bad things will keep happening again and again if we haven't finished our lesson on those resemble occurrences.
And might your dream ain't fake, since your heart is also a child you need to take care of too. You can give it the scene you have dreamt of Alice, and love it like how you deserve to be.
Hi, Sapphire. I am happy to see you here again. Nothing much is happening today, I hope you are well.
I know how traumatizing it is to hear your parents constantly arguing, it will certainly leave you scarred. At some point, I am just glad that they are no longer together. Not all the time parents can be actual parents for their children, no? You are brave and thank you for sharing me your experience, too.
I used to think it was my fault but I have realized that it is not. It will never be. I hope you will not forget that as well. Your kind words are more than appreciated and if I could tell those to my younger self, I would. I am sending you hugs with consent.