Phew!...
There will be no ructions !!! (well, not too many).
The ‘some big shit’ that can’t be talked about except face to face with my ex, Steph, has nothing to do with stuff relative to crypto, markets, or the coming blood bath…(no , I'm not referring to this little tickle we've had over the last 48 hours..)
The 'big shit', is more personal shit in nature - and not for block chain consumption (for now, anyways).
That being said, I’m still gonna have to leave my gaff to go and meet her.
Next week.
A week today.
She’s heading to Hong Kong for some property deals - business stuff- and is gonna stop off here for a day or two...
Which entails me getting off my arse, and travelling a few hundred kilometres - but is, in fairness, much better than going half way around the world...(con-ovirus 'rules' , don't apply to wealthy travelers)
The video still stands, though.
re: clever man, clues, and making money.
We had a loooong - and very interesting conversation last night.
I received a proverbial slap in the face.
....Or several slaps, rather - it was bordering on abuse!
She’s great.
We talked as only me an her do.
Funny, brutal, honest – all in the same sentence…
I’d like to say .... ‘and then, it suddenly struck me….’ – but that would be a lie.
It was Steph's words that struck me – just hard enough for me to wake up to a reality.
One I’ve been fooling myself about.
More importantly, the reasons behind why I’ve been doing so…
Synchronicity is a strange thing.....
Only yesterday I was talking to @minismallholding about my past, my dad, and some other stuff....
I mentioned something in a comment to her, about ‘looking for someone who I can communicate with, on the same level as my dad’ (not a family thing, an intelligence thing).
Steph brought this up to (she’s met my dad, and loved him to bits).
Part of a conversation: (truncated version )…..
STEPH: You do know why that you’re such an antagonistic twat on Hive, don’t you?
ME : I hate seeing idiots being duped into thinking that their not, via rewards. ...That, and I hate sophistry and weak logic, masquerading at intelligence.
STEPH: You’re so full of shit, you do know that? You don’t have a fucking clue , do you?
Me: Enlighten me, o'predator….
STEPH: You’re looking for someone who’s your equal. The only way to test that, is to try and destroy other people’s ideas. If they’re your equal, you get the fight, and then you also get the intellectual friend…
Me: Fuck off, it’s not like that at all.
STEPH : Get yer head out of yer arse, and look around. You’re bored.
I’ve looked at your rants, your cynicism, your anger. You’re frustrated because you have no one to joust with. You’re such a dick sometimes.
Me: Bollocks.
STEPH: Is the poor baby hurt by nasty words, from the horrible woman? (laughter).
Me: Fuck you
STEPH : Funny you should mention that….
Next 5 minutes…
(conversation not for block chain)
.....5 minutes later.
…oh….. it doesn’t really matter – you get the idea….
The point being – She was correct…. Bugger. (I hated it when she beat me at chess, to).
Let me explain....
Up until this last 5 years or so, I’ve always had some seriously intelligent people in my life.
...A friend who won a free masters degree course in mathematics - for solving some old equation or other (I don’t have a clue what).
.... a friend who worked at CERN.
A friend who…blah, blah, blah,..…you get the point.
The intellectual side of me (which is far from 'the whole' of who I am – but it is an important part of who I am) has not been stimulated to the same extent over this last few years, as has been the case over the last few decades (yes- even in my party days)....
Ergo, I go and find a fight - to see if there are any worthy opponents out there (and finding good friends along the way - peeps who are not of that ’intellectual bent’ – which is also great...!).
THAT is why I’m such a wanker sometimes, online. Frustration.
I cloak it (to myself) as some ‘noble cause’ – because it fits perfectly – But is there more to it?
Is it more a matter of me looking for someone who can 'match up'?
'Noble causes' are grounded in virtue.
Virtue is grounded in truth.
So is intelligence.
I’m not being 'all superior' here, not in the slightest (the midwit can only interpret it as such though, bless)...
As I’ve said many times before , I can be as shallow as a puddle and switch to being as deep as the Mariana Trench in about the same time that it takes to inhale ,and exhale, a breath.
I LIKE shallow frivolity, laughter, silliness.
I also LIKE intellectual sparring partners.
I’ve found plenty of silliness and enjoy it all immensely.
I’ve yet to find my sparring partners.
After deciding to 'leave all the bull shite behind', has a come at price it seems....
A lack of face to face intellectual sparring - something that I’ve sought out and enjoyed for most of my adult life.
So yeah...... Steph was correct – I didn’t KNOW the real reasons – motivations – to behind why I have been so ‘direct’ and aggressive.
I’ve been looking at things with an unconscious, but with an increasing, sense of frustration.
Hive is not the place to find such stimulus.
It's a midwit enclave.
It’s full of boring conformist midwits who, if they had an original thought in their heads, it would probably explode.
The insecurity of their own intelligence just oozes out... out of every post, in a desperate attempt to try and cover it up.
I’m done.
I’m not rage quitting!
Fuck, no.
I’m listening to Steph . A friend….I needed a sounding board far more than I realized…(the price you pay for becoming a semi recluse....).
STEPH: Coming across so cynical and negative is about the most stupid thing you can do, you dick…It ain't you...
Me : Well, please enlighten me, o' wise bitch…
STEPH: There, that’s better, you’ve started already….
Me: (silence)
STEPH: Oh come on, fill in the fucking blanks, you dufus…
Me: ….Nope, still in the dark over here…
(this was such enjoyable conversation, it really was)
STEPH Jesus Christ, you’ve let yourself go, you know that?
Me:Fuck off
STEPH: Take the total piss out of the idiots, you moron! (giggles)
Me: Please expand on your thoughts to the moron that’s listening, if you’d be so kind…
STEPH: Look, ********** (she uses my full name when she means business) you’re only pissing yourself off with what you’re doing now – I know you, I can see it in your writing.
Fuck the morons you’re arguing with.
Personally, I wouldn’t piss on them if they were on fire, but you….well…. you’re an idiot.
Why not deliver your material in a light hearted, witty, way?
It's far more the real , happy, you.
See if you can cause multiple embolism's that way, why don't ya?
You have the brains and humor to do it – so just fucking do it.
Rip 'em to pieces through mockery, wit, and laughter. You’re such a dick sometimes.
It’ll have exactly the same results including finding your sparring partners – but with the added bonus of not pissing yourself off in the process.
Not only that, babes, but it’ll give you something to do.
It'll take much more of your very limited intelligence to do it that way.... it's much harder to be a total cunt and to be able to smile and laugh through it all at the same time. ...(she’s THE expert in this field, trust me).
Me:
(silence)
STEPH: Use you fucking brains, and stop being so lazy.
You and lazy don’t work well together, and ripping idiots a new arsehole through dull logic and reasoning is a walk in the park for you.
It’s almost like your bullying them – nothing wrong with that - but if it makes you miserable in the process, then it means you're being a dick.
Me: You have a point….
(I hate her sometimes..lol)
STEPH: Poor baby... I can hear your bottom lip sticking out, all the way from here!
(laughing).
More conversations……
…so... there you have it..... I was schooled.... Again.
Bugger.
She’s correct....Totally, 100%... correct.
Bugger.
“If you can’t deliver the death blows and be happy about it, stop doing it…" (her words, not mine)….
STEPH: Go kill ‘em tiger, and just make sure you keep smiling.... I know you.
So…. that’s the truncated version of the chat I had last night.
The salient points are pretty close to verbatim…
I’ll be taking two days 'off' next week (Mon/tues) from this bizarre ecosystem, while I go and meet up with an old 'acquaintance', and a very good friend…
It’s kinda funny actually, because one of things that I’ve said to people over the years ... something that I 'supposedly' lived by .(until it was pointed out by a friend, that I wasn’t).....
“If you can’t be happy doing what you’re doing, then do something else…”
As I wrote in a post only a day or four ago - I AM happy in the online environment - it's my 'will to power'.
The growing frustrations (and growing cynicism) without laughter is an issue.
It's time to lighten up ....same messages, different delivery systems...
isn't that what i said last week?
but you just said lol...
and now you are saying i'm thick as well.
just because i don't look like sarah chalke...
Lol this picture cracked me up
what do mean? - that is my favourite selfie you sexist pig
how the fuck did you get a 28 rep - are you a newb?
here have a big fuck off vote
lolol.....what are you waffling on about, now?
just fuck with numpties
we are surrounded by eggs so make omelettes...
i was too cryptic!
ok boss...
p.s...when any word starts with 'cryp'...I fall asleeeeeeeeeeep...
cryporn crypanties crypenguin crypenis crypedophile crypunk crypusher crypube
think outside your box
Isn't than gender oppressive?
So bullying is okay if you're enjoying it? 🤣
This actually makes a lot of sense, now. There is a side to you I love conversing with and I enjoy reading what you write, but there was a time in the past when I unfollowed you. I think it was back on Steem...kind of glad to know that's not really you. 😊
She'd try to bully God if it meant her getting what she wants. lol
But seriously...
In context of our chat, it was referencing the need to be aggressive to stop the midwit cancer - which will only be construed and framed as 'bullying' - they pull 'the poor me card' at every opportunity and pile on in groups.
I'm not socially skilled like they are - it's the pinnacle of their game - their strength - I think it's boring. (autistic trait, apparently)
They really are the masters of that crappy game...and being masters of it, drag standards down.
(that's how they manage to infest everywhere - see education for example)
My cynicism and negativity is the effect that the midwit/sycophantic/ in hive has had on me, believe me.
It's 5 year old's being in charge of driving the car - and I'm sat in the bloody car to, but can't get to the steering wheel!
...'it feels like I'm taking crazy pills'....
I'm AM stubborn, though...lol
That's about the best description of life as we know it today! What can you do, but close your eyes, hold on tight and hope you can escape the car alive? Current mood in fact.
....try and crack as many jokes as you can, to see if you can break through to them, so they can see their inability to drive - either that, or make them all go so nuts that they jump out of the car....Ahhhhhhh...leaving you the wheel...
A man can dream...
No one to spar with intellectually.... huh...I guess I either agree too much with you or ignore the moments when you're making dumb statements to be a sparring buddy... 😆
lol- you think you're 'up for the job', matey? lol
of course...
well, about time somebody verbally spanked your ass. Ofc I am offended that you dont see me as someone you could spar with, however I too think we are not the best fit. As far as I can tell you are a deconstructionist as well, I need someone who presents an idea that I can analyze and critizise and then take the best parts for myself. You don't really offer that, but I still find most of your posts entertaining, like you said sometimes you just want to read silly stuff to laugh about ;P
On a different note I was also concerned that you might end up bullying a whole bunch of users. Sure I would also sometimes like to at least write a wake up call when I see certain posts and comments. The problem is: they dont know what they are doing. At least many of the foot soldiers.
Most of the time , I want to read silly stuff to laugh about - but this place in not conducive to humor. (you need to be relaxed about your own intelligence level - whatever that may be - for that to happen...)
No offence - re: being offended - you may well be of a much higher IQ than myself, matey.
deconstructionism has it's place, yes. (emphasis on 'it's place')
Postmodernist 'logic' can deconstruct to the point of idiocy.
It sure can be depressing since it all boils down to us being apes who want to fuck, eat, sleep and laugh. Having an intellectual debate is not everybodys cup of tea, but I am humble and think that as long as we don't actually change the world all of our talk about what would make the world a better place is pretty empty as well. It might sharpen a few of our old grey cells, but it is not more than a hobby.
I think my relation with @dwinblood started as a constant jousting match. However after some critical blows I changed my flag and now it became a dull, toothless Kaffeekränzchen of two old farts agreeing on most of the things there are to talk about.
Oh and I have seen people who you would think have the support to not act like insecure manchilds still cry like a nine year old or even better just ignore you, when you challenge their ideas. I think its because of the strong echo chamber they get otherwise, but who am I telling this?
I long ago came to the conclusion that not only is it okay to be wrong. It is often desirable. It is one of the best opportunities we have in life to learn and grow. We simply have to be willing to be wrong and okay with that.
That doesn't mean you need to assume you are wrong. It also doesn't mean that you can't be wrong about some things while being correct about others. A lot of people treat so many mental engagements as an "all or nothing" type of thing. Yet it doesn't need to be that way at all.
As such I engage. So do you. You will encounter a lot of similar exchanges for the most part. If you allow yourself to change then you'll find it more and more difficult to find opportunities to change. You long for those encounters with someone who disagrees with you, yet can be civil and have reasoned and rational conversations. Those are the moments you can learn and grow.
This is not how most of society is being conditioned to approach life. They are being conditioned not only to be on the constant look for victims, and things to complain about, but they are also being conditioned that being wrong is something you never want to happen.
I may feel bruised an battered in many exchanges. Especially when they resort to bashing my character or run to the standard mental escape hatches. Some very reasonable people for example may be far too quick about running to the "that's an anecdote" corner... Everything you recount about yourself is an anecdote. If you hear it from other people that is their anecdote. So yes it is an anecdote. IF there are a lot of similar anecdotes it begins to have more meaning than simply deciding you need not listen to it because it was an anecdote. Everything to some extent is based upon anecdotal experiences. Yet they accumulate and at some point YOU decide they have importance to your view of truth.
I don't know if I would agree that I desire to be wrong but I certainly agree on the sentiment that I love to seek out people who disagree with me. Sure it is always nice to be reaffirmed in your believes and to a degree that is desirable as well, however the real pleasure starts when I see a strong argument that totally contradicts my world view.
To sometimes have a knee jerk reaction when the core of your believes is challenged is also only human as well. But sometimes people treat their ideas like spoiled children, in that they can never be wrong and everything they demand shall be granted.
I would say most of my life experience is anecdotal, after all I will most likely just be an afterthought of human history. But still it is my life, my real world experience, it is one of the sources I trust the most! Sure you could lay out your world view, so you are covered by some big names of the scientific, philosophical or economic community and hide behind those ideas but that's not us ;)
I went and wrote a post along these lines.
Intellect is boring , intelligence can be challenging but is way overrated these days . And fuck it , i ain't smart , for all i know you just told that it be wise to sell any property one owns in Hong Kong for Shiva is gonna dance real soon and something about CERN that i did not really know where to place .
But looking forwards to your new , happy ,style ... ;-)
lol - Yup I agree - it's well overrated.
My 'happy style' is gonna take some serious work, matey!! lol - to re-calibrate..
LOL , i just abandoned the "happy style" a bit , no more joking around , shove it in there face like it is , damn i even took a piss in a river today in the form of a comment , .. fuck the coin ! For fucking can produce something good at times . ;-)
It's for my benefit, not 'theirs'...
“Ridicule is man’s most potent weapon.”
“…you do what you can with what you have and clothe it with moral arguments.”
– Saul Alinsky, Rules for Radicals
Oh, ok... so it has come to this...
I'll send you the bill for ALL the popcorn I spent this last weeks!!!
You freaking tease!
Your lack of thrills, is my massive sigh of relief...
Some people just enjoy conflict. It's a rather negative practice to go and seek it out. It's something that social media brings out in me. It's better to express the source of conflict that underlies this desire for conflict to someone who is trust worthy. I'd do it off-chain.
See : The price to pay for becoming semi recluse! lol
Old school roast until they blow up. You have pointed out quit often how they hate mockery, hate laughter and comedy. I may have been off in my guess, but I did get the comedy one lines kind-of sort-of right.
Enjoy monday and tuesday.
Yeah money turns everyone into a midwit! I know cause it happened to me. Once a long long time ago in a place very far far away called steemit, I bid bot my posts up to like 500 STEEM, and watched the midwit inside me scream bloody murder when u all tore my posts to smithereens! Haha u'r right, HIVE is the midwit capitol of the internet! Have a slice of !PIZZA for that!
You place hive on too high a pedestal (whispers - they're everywhere on social media...lol)
Oh I know what it is, it’s the midwits mating call! U see everything a midwit does boils down to one thing, trying to impress something or somebody that they are good enough. Birds sing, lions roar, and midwits attract midwits to feel safe because all midwits think alike! I should know, all I had to do was search deep down into my psyche and ask myself why I became the King Midwit! That’s why, I was showing off for my potential suitors! Lol it worked, another midwit did seek me out, but alas to positives did not attract! lol or maybe it’s as simple as something “they” put in the water?? aha fluoride maybe, most likely a combination of both. Glad we got that cleared up. Next time I’m reading your posts more thoroughly before I respond, wouldn’t want to expose my inner midwits again!! cheers and here’s another slice of midwitronirona !PIZZA 🤙
lolollo - pretty spot on !.... but always remember - they are v. insecure about their own intelligence - even though they are slightly above average.
Exactly, I'm so insecure about my own intelligence that I've even done research on YouTube about it for a solution, and found out that smart people rarely refer to themselves as smart, because they realize they only can know a tiny bit of reality. People that are not so smart refer to themselves as smart, because they think they know everything. That is how I lost my girlfriend, I told her I was a genius. lol Ooooof, and she was smarter than me in reality. I got the Midwit Boot! After this discovery I have invented my own personal Midwit invisibility cloak, I avoid them altogether by declaring my stupidity in advance, works like a charm! This Midwit is evolving faster than your average bear, yogi!!
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You got me there, one again I was thinking like a midwit! After being engrained here so many years, it’s hard to break the mold! Yes it just dawned on me that people don’t make squat, and even actually pay money to be midwita on twotter and facehell! haha omg back to the writing desk for me, time to put my nose in the midwit corner for the rest of the night while i ponder this over! thanks 🙏 I needed that! haha
baaad midwit, naughty midwit.....lol
I don't think you understand exactly what a midwit is ...?
(you do no exhibit the traits of midwittery, sir!)
Thanks, I'm still learning.
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Words on marble....@lucylin what an interesting post...
Alright! Okay! ok... Stop the laments and let me be your sparring for a little while solely to dust off, entertain and beat the crap out of your wit.
But first I have to warn you bud. ¡I'm not Predator! but I won't respond for the integrity of your ears either!
Stop oppressing me, you hater !
Oppression...