The people who faced depression alot are people who hate talking to people about their problems. I am one such person, for two months I was constantly depressed, had no one to talk to because of my trust issues. It reached its peak and I had to voice out against my will but still did not feel any better.
It all started when we went for psychiatric experience about a year ago. Leading females is the worst thing that ever happened to me in my lifetime.
Being the leader, I was expected to head everything, which I did. We got to the venue of the experience which is to last for 2 months. I hustled out hostels for my coursemates to stay and Every one was comfortable. The only problem was that there is no water and light. We had to call a tanker to fill water into our GP tank, and also we had to join other schools to light up the hostel. They were about 5 schools that came for the experience. I did my calculations and everyone was to pay about N1.5k so that we can buy water twice a week and run light up the hostel for two weeks out of the 8 weeks we will stay in the place.
Everything was going smoothly until I decided to travel for a ceremony. I asked my assistant to takeover as I'm not around but she refused, I asked other people, including the males but they too refused, except for one guy. I instructed the guy on what to do and gave him morethan enough money before travelling.
A day into my trip, in the night, I started receiving calls from my course mates and the school authority. They were shouting,making noise, it was as if the school turned upside down. They said that I stole their money, travelled with it to go have fun with my girlfriend. They said that I have been stealing their money and I kept the in darkness. My ears heard what my mouth can not tell. They started insulting me in the Whatsapp group chat, even bringing up my relationship.
I was shocked, and had to call my assistant. She was not saying anything that made sense as she was bent on insulting me. I cut the phone and dropped it. At that point, I was getting annoyed so I did not pick any calls. A call entered, it was from a person I respected in my class, so reluctantly picked up. Thankfully, she was ready to hear me out. I narrated everything to her, told her that I gave one of our coursemate money for fuel and water. that was when she told me what was actually happening. I realized that it was the work of some of my course mates who wanted me to notice them and respect them but I did not. They seized the opportunity to dent my image, poison the minds of my course mates, then use them as pawns to attack me. I laughed when I realized it but deep down, I was really hurt. The caller gave me her advice and hung up.
She called back, told me that she narrated everything to them, but the same group of people were now asking why did I not give them the money? Why did I give it to the guy who turned out not to buy the fuel and water. She said that they told her to tell me to come and do an account for them (the group of people) and I responded that I will not. I will account to the class and not them.
After that, different thoughts start entering my mind. Those I helped, those that come to finance, advice and many other things are the ones turning against me at this moment and did not want to hear what I had to say. I was deep in thought I could not focus on anything.
After my trip, I went back to school but the attitude I was getting from the once lively students was like they had plan to do something bad to me.
To free my self, I gathered the class, did the account for them and handed everything over to them. When they realized that nothing was missing, everyone was then trying to light up and come close but I just left.
The thoughts lasted for months, the group of students did not stopped there as they continued with their mockery. Though it hurt, I did not show it. The ones that joined them initially as saw that I as not guilty tried to come back to being friends with me but I did not give them the space no more. I became detached, cold and very aggressive to anyone that tried to come close to me.
For about two months, I was in this state, sometimes I recall how the people I have helped turned their back on me and I cry.
One way I got my self back was through music. There is an open field in the school, so I go there every night, stand in the middle, plug in my earpod and blast my ears out with the highest volume my phone has to offer. I sing out loud with the music most times. After every round of music, I will always switch to Eminem - I'm not afraid. I will follow the lyrics aggressively with a very aggressive body movement. Sometimes, into close to a class and punch the walls so that everything will get off my chest. It worked for me though. When it reduced to an extent, I decided to talk to somebody about what I was passing through but honestly, nothing changed. Had to go back to the good old ways and until I became sane again.
The one lesson I learnt from the event was that: IF YOU DO GOOD, BAD WILL FOLLOW YOU. NO GOOD DEED GOES UNPUNISHED. That doesn't mean you should do bad though, but it means that before doing good, be sure that the person is worth it.
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I understand you.
People can be very wicked especially when they are jealous of you.
Just keep being you.
People will always be people.
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Hummn. That’s humans for us. You can’t satisfy humans. No way. No matter what you do. Imagine then determined to see you fall and mock you. But at the end they still wanted to come back again. That was crazy.
Glad you were abalone to console yourself with music. I can imagine you screaming out loud in the middle of the field 😂 😂. Thanks for sharing
Lol . I can laugh now but then, it was not funny. I am happy that I could pass through that stage of life.
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So sorry you had to go through that, it truly hurts differently when you are accused of something you did not do. Glad you came out stronger, jokes on the people that tried to bring you down.
Jokes on them.
Thankfully, I did not commit the unthinkable.
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I tried punching the wall in anger one time... The pain sent the anger away at once.😂 It worked, but I'm not trying that again.😂😂
On a more serious note though, I totally understand your point. It can hurt to see people that you're working hard for being the ones to turn against you like that. You did what I took would have done, everyone will just be on their own. Simple.
I am just seated, imagining how fast the anger flew away😂😂
It was really painful though but It made me started hating them unnecessarily. I sacrificed a lot but welp, they turn out to behave how they did. Thank God I'm fine now.
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I feel your pain dear, its not easy to let go an act of betrayal. It eats deeply but we must try to let go so as to free ourselves from the torments and be happy
But for trust, hmm, it will be hard to rebuild
#dreemport
It eats really deep. I'm still saddened by it up till date but I've found a way to let go.
Thank you dreemer for visiting
I think it's in many or most cases that good is paid back with evil and not in all cases. Such an experience can demoralized one from the path of being good. I don't understand people's conscience a times.
#dreemerforlife
My mentality now about doing good to people has really changed a lot. The only thing I can do currently is charity for the less privileged. I always question myself before doing good fr someone
People can easily forget the good you did for them. It was indeed a painful experience you went through, facing insults and mockery for no justifiable reason.
I am glad you eventually got over it. Depression is real. We must not let it overcome us.
A #dreemerforlife from #dreemport
It was really painful but well, I'm glad my sanity is intact and the lessons have been learnt.
Thank you dreemer
Sometimes when people wished to be in the position you are and couldn't get it, they spread rumors in order to paint you bad.
I am sorry you had to go through all that.
I do not know why people are like that but well, I'm grateful itall passed.
Thanks a lot