There was a time when I found it very difficult to control my emotions, to the point that the people around me were affected by my inability to control myself. I realised that there were several factors influencing this, apart from my background and my anxiety about certain things, namely external factors. I often found myself influenced by others who also struggled to control their emotions, and when we met, it was a perfect combination for hurting others or even ourselves. Sometimes, before anger arose, I tried to control it to prevent unwanted things from happening, but it's all in vain if my emotions have peaked and I lack self-control. Slowly, I began to realise that it was all pointless. I often destroyed my surroundings when I couldn't vent my anger. I would punch walls or throw things around me. Yes, I realise that this is not good and very destructive to myself. Now I am trying to get out of it all and learn to be calm about what happens and control the situation as best as possible to avoid silly things happening. The downside of being easily emotional and angry is, of course, that other people and myself will regret it because I acted without thinking carefully. Once again, this digital collage I created is my way of learning from my bitter experiences so they don't repeat themselves in the future. Truly, art is a form of therapy, hahaha, and laughter is also one way to momentarily forget all the foolishness :)
Okay, I created this collage entirely using Paint.net, taking images from internet and using a free font called Boska.
Here are the steps I took, which I turned into a GIF :
I really identify with the idea of expressing hatred and contempt for everything (but especially for oneself) through art; I do that a lot too. I used to do it more, but I think adulthood has somewhat stifled my art, partly because there's no time left to "think too much," and to be honest, that's partly an antidote for me. Being busy working and dealing with the basics of life ends up serving to soften this destructive rumination, but whenever possible, I turn to art with something more grotesque, hehe. I always post something on Alien Art Hive, but I think sometimes I tend to post more "light" art, I don't know. I'll try to find some more intense ones.
Sometimes I always want to work on something more serious and technically more professional, but the reality is not like that. I am actually used to making something that is also "light" art, perhaps due to a lack of ideas and not thinking things through longer. What is clear is that do art is something enjoyable for me, and seeing other people with their great art is a very influential trigger for me, and I always look up to those who are consistent.