I really identify with the idea of expressing hatred and contempt for everything (but especially for oneself) through art; I do that a lot too. I used to do it more, but I think adulthood has somewhat stifled my art, partly because there's no time left to "think too much," and to be honest, that's partly an antidote for me. Being busy working and dealing with the basics of life ends up serving to soften this destructive rumination, but whenever possible, I turn to art with something more grotesque, hehe. I always post something on Alien Art Hive, but I think sometimes I tend to post more "light" art, I don't know. I'll try to find some more intense ones.
Sometimes I always want to work on something more serious and technically more professional, but the reality is not like that. I am actually used to making something that is also "light" art, perhaps due to a lack of ideas and not thinking things through longer. What is clear is that do art is something enjoyable for me, and seeing other people with their great art is a very influential trigger for me, and I always look up to those who are consistent.