I think that if I were to die today I would think that I did everything possible and more to reach my soul's goals, that I have learned a lot and that I know what I came for, that I was developing the path and learning in the process and that I will not rest until I die, I will not, because life is wonderful and you have to have intensity in living it!
Life is wonderful, and not wonderful at times, best to live it the best one can.
The important thing is to create it step by step...