This constant ache in my heart, not because of some girl who left or loss of close one to the heart but rather due to the disappointment in myself, due to the realization of what I have become, what I have given up on. My dreams, my ambitions, my desires all are slipping from my grasp. I don’t really know what has changed, what I started doing wrong but I feel no motivation, no desire to get up from the bed in the morning and no sleep in the nights. I try to make right with the wide heart of mine and still go for the dreams that I still have and I still dream of but I cannot push myself. Some voices cloud up my thoughts within me “ what is the point really ? ”. I feel lonely amongst the friends that care for me, I cannot enjoy their company anymore but still cannot be alone. There are so many things that require my attention like my studies, my career, my family and I mean to take care of all that but I’m so miserable myself I cannot do anything. I’m eating through my savings and my health is getting bad. Please help me through this lord, I mean to set things right and I want to enjoy the beauty of this gift “my life”.
