Notes from a Stale

in Freewriters4 years ago

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Greetings to everyone, the entire hive community, starting my first steps on this platform.


I have not been able to sleep for many days, at most only 3 or 4 hours before getting up for one reason or another, I wonder what is happening, will age or I am suffering from some disorder, I am suffering from insomnia? Sometimes I have difficulty consilating sleep and staying asleep, it is something that is becoming chronic, many others I fall asleep at inappropriate times, I feel that I am going crazy.

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Trying to find some explanation to this problem, so I walk in retrospect I realize that there is one common factor and that is that every night I awake early, long before dawn what is the prevailing feeling of economic insecurity and financial, that we currently live in the country, a feeling of uncertainty that obviously will not let you rest, think about the future of the family, especially the little ones that are just beginning to live and do not understand the situation much, imagine your future to know what is uncertain, put on the mat again the theme of emigration, that, as you flee my wife, but that it is fair and necessary to talk about because it is at stake is the future of our daughters.

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It's hard for them just to hear me talk of emigrating, I understand, were 2 long years we were separated, that only we could see through a video call, in which he was practically established a schedule to be able to communicate, early in the morning and very late at night, when he was returning from work. I believe that what, so I really have is a feeling of guilt, for having returned and now not being able to guarantee the future of the family, the economic security to which we were used in the past and which is no longer possible, since money is not enough.


I see entire families disintegrated for different reasons, I imagine that some did not have good seeds, others because they can not face the economic reality that they live and that hits them abruptly in their noses, others because one of the 2 members refuses to leave the country and prefers to separate and let go of his partner, in short there are so many things, that now writing these lines I begin to understand why I have been so long without being able to sleep.


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from Venezuela.