You are voicing the tension in the hearts of many ... being alone and not in a fixed place means that you are not keeping the routines of everyone else going ... but then having a fixed place gives one the occasion to be still and consider things.
Attention is brief. Honesty is forever. Never think what you are writing doesn't matter, if not least for giving you the chance to express yourself and see what you think.
I am learning to re-frame it that way because through speaking out my mind, I got extra courage, affirmation and even feedback from kind people like you Dean. I guess it's normal to think like it didn't matter sometime because our surrounding made it seem like it. The thing is, whatever we shared matters.
It is normal at times to feel insignificant in the middle of the huge world we live in, watching others getting more attention. Just push through it and keep going!