The important thing here is that you are being honest with yourself, you really know where you stand and who you really are...that is something very important. It's impossible not to feel lazy, but you have to work at not letting it dominate you.
I really hope that in this 2021 you manage to focus enough to continue being a better person. By working little by little every day you achieve amazing things.
Greetings!
Thank you for booster, it helps to move forward.
Wishing you beautiful day.