I guess because of my upbringing, I couldn't recognize myself ever. I never told myself to stop, that's enough instead I was in thrust of doing everything more than enough to please others. Yes, to please others by comparing myself to others. And that's a huge thing because I never understood my value and my capability. I had enough, I needed to heal but instead, I pushed myself to chase the word "more and more". That "more/ enough" never arrived instead, my inside became empty at last. As a result, I did try to end my life and ended up being in therapy for a long time...
After doing so much and then ending up at zero point do hurts...It causes pain, anger, and stress and later after the mental fight; ends up in depression...
Hive was always a safe place for me because I knew this community cared and wouldn't judge me. I spent my life being judged by others and now I judge myself sadly...
Past definitely doesn't define the future but unfortunately, my past is affecting my present badly...
Thank you so much for all the support, I do appreciate it from the bottom of my heart...