Regarding fence-sitting... I wouldn't say it's desirable so much as necessary for me, personally, to get a more comprehensive view of as many sides as possible, but I don't feel caught in the middle. I feel like I have options. :)
Sounds like a reasonable 'truth-seeking' position to take. Personally, even though I find myself solidly on the 'free will' side of the fence, I strongly prefer truth to illusion, deception, or whatever the alternative might be. That is why I welcome constructive discourse with other genuine truth-seekers.
I used to fall the same way, but experience has taught me few things are as simple as they seem and the bigger the questions the more complex the answers, if any exist at all.
I think we could each find some unknown to drive ourselves mad in pursuit of an answer to, but that denies us the wonder of the mystery. I’m pretty sure if there ever comes a time when the world’s fate hinges on my understanding of everything someone or something will drop me a line. 😁