Thats because your stance is weak and you know it. Your only escape is honesty. You nay speak lies to the world and have good peoples skills all the same. Example, nazis with great food and table manners. Your hurting hive and the math shows it. Your also hurting your future investment to have more. You do want more right? Im sure.
Your actions of greed are plastered throughout chain. There is no washing it off now. You need to seriously re evaluate how the money flows.