I'm typing this on my note keeper. Hive is broken to me right now and since I have your tab open I want to answer.
I'm sorry about your father and his face and your current guilt about being away. In some ways, I wish I hadn't seen my father one more time. He didn't know me or my mother. His face was completely absent.
I don't understand 71 tabs. If I have 10 open for a specific project it's a big deal. I attack life and projects the same way. I focus on what is next, do what I can, and move on. No regrets. Untrue. Very few regrets.
I was once completely rudderless, completely reactive with no noticable input from me at all. If I can make it another 2 weeks it'll be 30 years since I've put any alcohol or dope into me. Not always the best, but always better.
Once again, you've made me think. Generally speaking a good thing. Thank you.
71 tabs pretty much all surrounding the one thing - I don't visit each every day and notifications are off for all except discord.
Last time I talked to my dad he didn't really know who he was speaking to - that was a while ago. I have got and sent some videos over the last few years, but there is little that can really be done.
30 years is a long time, congrats! I have never been much of a typical vice addict, but as an ex-smoker, I do have an idea of how hard it can be.