Contemplation

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The ultimate value of life depends upon awareness and the power of contemplation rather than upon mere survival.

Aristotle


The spring grasses swayed around me, the movement creating a sound one can only find in natural places like this, one that reached inside and rested there bringing comfort and solace and I felt soothed in that moment; at peace emotionally and physically.

I gazed at the clouds drifting slowly across my vision and the sunlight warm on my face, welcome on this crisp day. I found things in the clouds, turned that random collection of moisture droplets so far above me into animals, mystical beings and interesting shapes. Part of me thought about the snakes moving about at this time of year of course and part of me didn't care - I was content and in a perfectly nice state of mind for contemplation.

Since resigning from my job I've done little else but furnish my life with that which I felt I needed: Relaxation, rejuvenation and a great deal of reflection as well. A valued break.

Initially I had no plans to go back to work any time soon however, possibly foolishly, a few weeks ago I sent off an application for a role I thought might suit me. I don't want to work in my previous industry any longer, property, and figured I'd see if I can demonstrate to a company that my skills are transferable. I didn't get a chance at that job but the recruiter-chap contacted me directly based on my curriculum vitae and we chatted.

Since then he's sent me four legitimate roles, all of which look quite interesting, have solid remuneration some 35-40% above my previous and are all in completely different industries. I hadn't expected that.

Last week I interviewed for two of them with the others upcoming this week. One of those interviews went for just over two and a half hours! Yeah, that's a long interview.

I'm not sure what will come of them although that very long one is with a company I feel comfortable with, is in an industry that is not going to disappear anytime soon and offers plenty of scope for me to add value through my expertise. It's something I think I could do well and considering I feel reasonably good about where things stand right now, and that I've been told to expect a reasonably fast response, I felt it would be a good time to consider my options and needs going forward.

That's why I was laying out in a field in the middle of nowhere gazing up at the sky today...To find a moment quiet enough where I could delve inside and sort through thoughts and options, needs and desires; a place where I could do some quiet contemplation based on this new potential reality.

I'll be honest and say I was looking forward to some time away, an extended camping trip with no fixed return-date however sometimes life plays cards we don't expect. I see a great opportunity in this particular role and a company in which I'd expect to feel comfortable within. Is that enough to cause me to forego my wilderness camping expedition? Should I prioritise myself and base needs? I just don't know.

I'm not one to let people wait meaning I'll make a decision reasonably quickly should an offer come through in the next few days. I don't like to play games. Sure, I may negotiate the package or terms somewhat but my decision will come quite quickly.

I think I've come close to my decision, today's trip out into the wilderness helped me find clarity to contemplate the matter from multiple angles and to project it forward. If an offer comes through I'll go through another quick process of contemplation and consideration and then I'll respond one way or the other.

Making decisions that affect one's future are sometimes not easily reached. All we can do is make the best decisions we can based on the information we have at hand and work with the implications and ramifications of it hoping regret doesn't pay a visit later on. I hope to come to a suitable decision when the time comes and a little contemplation now will mitigate the risk of regret later.


And how about you? Have you ever needed to make a decision that could fundamentally change your immediate or long term future? How did you go about reaching your decision, what factors came into play and how did it work out for you moving forward?


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I wonder if the same cloud formation somehow moved over to where you were, some days ago I saw something similar while being driven and was staring intently at it trying to work out when the last time I saw clouds like t hat was XD

also saw it from a completely different angle

Sounds like you're popular, lots of choice then XD Good luck with the decision making :D

We're looking at the same clouds but from opposite ends of the country? How romantic Ry! 😂

Yeah, there's a bit going on with the jobs. I think there'll be an offer or two and then I'll really have to think up some answers fast. We'll see how it goes.

Absolutely, there's no way it would have changed shape or dissipated completely or anything, everything is static and unchanging and we are supposed to do everything in our power to preserve it thus forever XD

Well if a good job comes up I hope it's amazing, and if the offers aren't good enough then you can go away for your extended camping trip after all ;D

I'm being selective with the jobs Ry, I don't want to jump into something - I guess one never knows until one is in it but I have a good feel about one particular job and another feels ok too. We'll see.

You left me with no words, infact I am short of words.

To Continue with, let me quickly ask you this question!

I hope your new decision about taking a new contract, isn't going to stop you from coming round hive?
If that Is a No answer, then I am happy.

I said This, Because you are one of the people on hive that make the ecosystem a relaxable social for me

Then my answer:

whenever I am stuck with decision that affect my long term courses of action.

I do not just haste in making decision, just as you have said, contemplation must be what I do for more days before circling my decision on the most preferably option.

Because when you give it a thought for more than two to three days, you must surely come up with the best option.

One thing I know for sure is that, decisions at times are hard to make but when we are emotionally stable, I think deciding on it wouldn't be a problems to us.

Good morning

hope your new decision about taking a new contract, isn't going to stop you from coming round hive

It won't take me from hive although will cause me to adjust how I do things as, initially at least, I'll have less time available to me. I'll not disappear though.

You're right about decision-making also. If one is settled and calm throughout the process then the decision is often better.

Now i am better

Since resigning from my job I've done little else but furnish my life with that which I felt I needed: Relaxation

Did you really think carefully about doing that, I think it's really sad.

What's sad about it?

Why did you resign from your job? but many people like his job, but you resign from your job. 🥺

Because I wanted to do something different, as per the post above. Give it a read sometime.

OK, I got it! 👌

I was traveling back home so couldn't really participate this time but here's my take.
I'll go for option one.

I'm not some materialistic person but that doesn't really mean that I don't value things around me, l do! But these things are not my priority. The thing I would like to mention here is my sense of care towards others, towards people around me. My roommate got severely sick so I chose to stay with him, stayed up all the night to keep him medicated and covered. When the situation did not seem favorable I decided to travel back home with him. Now that he's doing fine, his parents are relieved specially his mother. Ahh that smile on his mother's face 💕🥺

You have posted this comment on the wrong post mate.

Sorry for sounding like an idiot these days 😂

I usually meditate and then a decision finds me. Fear generally is not the best advisor. Gorgeous sky:)

The sky is pretty great huh?
I'm not one that ever found the ability to meditate I guess. I keep thinking too much.

You might try a walking meditation. Sometimes if you give the body something to do, it is easier to quiet the thoughts. It is really only necessary that you slow/quiet thought to get the goods from meditation.

Give yourself a very simple and beautiful path and try to walk it as slow as possible. Also sunset and sunrise is the best time for this.

Alternatively you can try something like slowly lowering your arms while standing. Just start with a few minutes.

I hike a lot, for hours on end so I guess that might count for something?

Sure does:)

Is it possible you have raised a false dichotomy? Taking the job doesnt necessarily preclude the time away per se. They may give you several weeks before you start, say November 1 or even December 1. Perhaps you might find value in only going for a week (vacation) several times versus the one big block of time. Oftentimes decisions are not simply A or B only.

You're right, the pendulum always swings I guess. We'll see what it does tomorrow and I'll react when it does. Either way I'm in control.

This is so damn relatable from here. I had to quit my previous jobs cuz they were killing the morale of the skills I have within. I feel so uncomfortable whenever I can't get the chance to put my skills into use wherever I work. This leads me to contemplate lot of things, to the extent that I get lost even when in public places. It further results in a big burst of inspiration for me regarding poetry, making me a big time overthinker. The time alone to contemplate gives me the peace I'd have ever requested from anyone.

A little contemplation and evaluation can help make decisions better, and that can make ones future more successful.

Very Very True...

over two and a half hours...

My god man, they are punishing you already!!!

It's all good bro, I sent an invoice for my time. Seven day terms.

That's the way to do it!! :0D

They're outmatched by far!

I've got to set the tone for the future.

I usually do that by wearing shades and walking in the new joint with a silver topped cane but there's still time 😃

Ah yes, the standard tone-setting technique - an age old, tried and tested, method. I should have known you do it in style.

Greetings @galenkp , thanks for sharing your writing. Blessings.

You're welcome. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment.

The best way to decide is to ask yourself where you want to be now, in the immediate future, and in the long run. If the change can make that happen, why not go for it?

There's always many moving parts but some contemplation and evaluation can go a long way right?

Yeah... We just need to keep things in perspective

Precisely.