Tangled Thoughts and Broken Bridges

in OCD2 years ago

My heart can't help but get submerged by this constant shattering.

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Every minute of every day, my heart continuously experiences being broken into pieces as inequity dominated the world I'm residing. I wonder how could I ever unnoticed what I've seen and unheed what I've heard. Being observant is like a punishment, is it?

No matter where I face, a wave of suffocating events greet me like an acquaintance; so insensitive to embrace the feeling of annoyance I gathered from within. Embarking on my day as if I'm glad.

The truth is, life is a mess, sometimes.

In this life where peace is so hard to reach and the roaring cries will always resonate in every corner of life, I end up wondering what it feels like to lay in a bed of rainbows and butterflies. I wonder if there comes a time when the ambiance will stay glowing and shining like there's no tomorrow, with no trace of sorrow exposed. A life where harmony dances in the air, tapping the minds of each one.

Can't it just be like that? Can't this world remain be embraced with serenity? Does anyone want to embark on a life away from chaos?

The cruel world becomes my pillow every night, bubbling in my mind until the sun rises and the blanket of uncertainty remains so cold as ice turning my soul numb. I guess no one can't help this heaviness that I have been carrying unless it will be mended.

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The sad thing is, that life will always be like this. No matter how many months or years or decades could it take, it will always be the same. It's like jumbled experiences are being passed from one person to another and they will keep on replaying as time goes by. Complicated? It always is.

The usual complaints about traveling from a distance to a distance and a never-ending journey continue. It's tiring to think of it, but that's the reality that no one can ever diminish till the end.

Now, as this crisis flows in time. I can't contain the sadness as bridges broke tediously before my eyes. How bitter it is to know that the strong bonds were easily burned by injustices and lethal words. When the ego is triggered, this is indeed inevitable.

But I just hope, I am truly hopeful, that if one day this adversity would come to end; I hope healing will be served, including the pain that's renting free in my heart. May the broken bonds will be mended with happy memories again.

May we all realize that the people surrounding us are not our enemies, they're our friends and families. This problem that we are experiencing is what's bothering our ways. Instead of fighting with each other, let's help hand in hand to end the suffering. Let's cooperate and work together as one. Let's not allow the chaos among our fellow humans distracts us from the real problem. And I hope these thoughts will sync into your minds. I hope and only hope for the best.

With these tangled thoughts that wander freely in my mind, may you all flock away from my sight leaving no trace behind. May you realize how eager I am to lose you in a snap.

To broken bridges that have done, may a light will be showered upon and provide healing in no time. May the broken bridges be mended with forgiveness and peace. May the healing be served.

Nevertheless, opening the door towards the knotty thoughts is overwhelming. Seeing the broken bonds around feels so heartbreaking. The world is like a battle where everybody loses. It's painful to note.

Sometimes, it's best to unload the heavy baggage that's lurking from within to inhale a sense of relief.

Are there thoughts that constantly bothering you lately?


Disclaimer: The views expressed are personal and solely belong to the writer.

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I had a good laugh when you asked if it's a punishment to be observant of the things going on around us?

It truly feels like a punishment because when you are the only one that sees what is while everyother person thinks it's a normal thing, you usually feel trapped and stagnant while it feels as if others are matching forward. hehe

Many people are living with pain and all we can do is to hope for a better tomorrow. A tomorrow filled with peace and Harmony.

Thanks for sharing this on DreemPort

Indeed my friend, I guess being observant and sensitive to the surrounding would just give me headaches hehe. How can I unsubscribe to this one? haha. If only.

Maybe I'll just try to care less because I don't want to get so stress. But I'm still hopeful for harmony around the world.

Anyway, thanksss for paving your visit and leaving your wonderful thoughts around here my friend.

Haha... Being observant to the environment also has its positives. It's not something you can stop just because you want to, but one thing you can do is to amplify the positives in your Environment.

If you tune into news channels, the likelihood of being informed of multiple deaths, crimes and massive corrupt practices is always very high. If it gets to you, it will be best to cut down on the exposure to such news.

Watch things that feeds you with positivity. Read about the good things happening in the world. That will be better for your mental health. Hehe

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You are a very good writer, ate.

Aweee, so sweet of you nani. I appreciate this a lot.

You're welcome ate.

I wish there was a way to publish this write up in a national newspaper or anywhere else that will have a more public view than this platform that is for a few bloggers. Your concern is same for many of us, the condition of this World makes many wonder if this life is all there is or there is another that will come wash away our tears , change things and give us hope. We should be hopeful that soon relief will come and happiness will never elude mankind, ever again.

Thanks for putting this together, let's be hopeful, trust and pray.

Regards, from dreemport

I totally agree with the words you added my friend. Sometimes I just can't help but sigh especially when I get to heed some unpleasant events around me. It's painful; truly heartbreaking. But I guess what we can hold within our hearts is a sense of hope that one day, things will be iron-out. Let's continue to pray and have a positive view towards the future.

Anyway, I truly appreciate your words of compliments my friend and the words that you shared. So glad to meet you here as well, all thanks to Dreemport. :)

My goodness Leticia!!!!!!

This post was heart-breaking but GORGEOUS to read... You are so expressive!!! Your writing just rips at my heart!!! in the best way! hehehehe

I know this world can be waves of sadness - but always remember...

where there is life - there is hope!!!

Thank you for this post - and for your heart bleeding on the page for us!!! It was powerfully moving! here from DreemPort :)

Aweee, the line that you input showered my heart with comfort my dear friend, "where there is life- there is hope". Grateful for you with these thoughts that you shared and for giving me such compliments. You truly warmed my heart.

By the way, I'm thrilled to meet you here my friend. All thanks to Dreemport that you're able to visit my space.

This is quite emotional. It's sad we live in a world submerged in cruelty and lack of empathy. Only few truly care why the rest don't care what happens. There is so much sorrow and sadness, killings and fightings, blood shed with little effort channeled towards peace and diplomacy.

I haven't lost hope though. I believe that someday humanity will return and empathy will fill us up so much that we would learn to actually feel what others are feeling and put others first before us. Maybe it's a sham maybe it will never happen but I'll keep hope alive and someday it just may become reality.