Growing up, I always had a feeling that I was not smart enough. Being a bit of introvert didn't help much.
I read a lot on how to improve myself. Books, blogs, videos, courses etc. Not just in self improvement, but in business, writing, technical skills etc.
Internet is full of advise on how to improve yourself in a specific area. Even after all of that advise, I think behavior is something you cannot change easily.
Because it's not like math that there is particular formula, or coding, that there is a particular sequence.
It takes years to change your behavior, and all your life experience and your current habits to build up your personality.
At times, I can act like quite an extrovert, be social easily. But there are bits of past behavior inside me. Maybe those pieces will be in me forever.
I don't know much about brain injuries, but I am sure what you were before, is still there inside you. And will be there forever.
BTW, I find your brother way too hilarious. Sometimes I laugh way too much reading his comments😂
I am sure humor runs in the family😄
It is hard. It is made harder when we identify what we do as who we are, as then change becomes losing ourselves.
Or some kind of cataclysmic event.
For someone that hates clowns - he is a bit of one. 🤡