G-Dog. I know we see you as some kinda gun toting, take no shit tough guy but sadly I got a newsflash... Despite our obvious apparent hero-worship, you are just one of us buddy, human!
When our emotions related to death, love and that whole godawful 'saying goodbye to someone we love approaching' deal threaten to overwhelm us - it is from a place of duality.
We can avoid the pain by not loving, feeling and letting another in BUT then we don't get to have all that good stuff. OR We can feel the whole range of the very best of human emotion, this however cannot be fully experienced without the risk of that pain.
We can embrace the fact that love and loss and pain are all inextricably linked and dive in absolutely certain that at some time, sooner or later the sunny skies will be broken and the black clouds will move in. Yup! life is crap isn't it? This is probably the cruelest aspect of genuine connection.
We cannot of-course enter in to such things consumed by the fact of one day because then we would miss all the joy. We would miss all the funny, heart-warming 'touch your heart' stuff that makes every single day worth living. There's no real choice after all is there?
Merlin has clearly known a boatload of love and care and has obviously given much back in return. I remember someone from my previous job having the stupidity to use the term "It's only a dog' after myself and my family were utterly bereft after losing our springer spaniel Lady quite a few years back. I have never trusted that opinion when it comes to pets. They are another family member and add to the family in immeasurable ways.
I remember my Daughters were devastated when I said I would never have another dog in the house because it was just too painful to endure the loss that was inevitable. Jeez I was naive. We had another within a year when I realised that we would miss out on so much for the peace of mind we would gain.
I am sure that however this story plays out it will be based on the right decision for the right reasons. Funny how those hugs that we know are heading towards the last we will share, become so damn precious isn't it?
Your words tell the true story that you have little denial regarding what is to come. Wishing you Faith and Cleo all the very best wishes and love to endure that pain, thinking about all the very best aspects of Merlin is still the best course of action in my opinion. To Merlin I wish him the very best end to his adventure and am incredibly pleased he got to play out his life in the company of such an adoring family.
The tears if, and more likely when they come are testament that you loved and you lost. They are actually a sign of love, compassion and the kind of people that you and Faith are. Take really good care my friend. Thinking of you all...
P.S. I realise that I m talking about Merlin like he has already gone, that's not my intention. It is just that such profound thoughts and feelings, lead us there at times like these and I know that you are all too aware that even if Merlin has a reprieve and hopefully is given however much extra time whilst comfortable. You are wholeheartedly aware that this is something you will endure sooner than you would like.
Hi mate and thanks for your words. It's Saturday morning here and we said goodbye to Merlin just after 6pm last night. It was so hard and of course Faith and I were distraught. Feeling the life go out of him, his body go limp and face blank will stay with me for ever. My eyes hurt this morning, and I feel terrible, and I miss my little buddy so much. We'll be ok though.
We are going to bury him tomorrow and that will not be pleasant either but we will begin to heal, to remember him as one of the most important things in our lives and pour all our love into Cleo. She already god spoilt so I don't know what the next stage of spoilt is...But we'll do that.
Thank you for your kind words.
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ENGAGEtokens.Your words give me encouragement, thank you ♥️