Since I quit Drinking in Feb 2019, I have been taking several steps to gradually move towards a happier and ultimately more fulfilling life. It’s a slow process, but I have learned that having accountability is important for me to change. It is in that spirit of accountability that I am writing this review. It forces me to analyse what has actually happened in the past week, what the results were, and then I can decided the next step to take.
Sunrise at Linwood Warren, Lincolnshire
This post is probably more for my benefit than it is yours, but who knows, you might find it interesting
Health
I had been feeling a bit 'meh' in my last 'Review'. And if I am truly honest I feel worse now. Running has gone out of the window. I have stopped tracking what I eat, and while I haven't pigged out on anything, I know my diet has gone to shit.
I don't know why I bother some days. Not just with exercise, but with anything. There is a distinct lack of interest in doing anything. The only reason I go to work because I know that the lack of money that would come with no job would make my situation worse.
This negativity has always been a part of me, along with the corresponding low self-esteem and self-worth. I usually have a better handle on it than this, but lately I can't even be bothered to hide it anymore.
Mental Heath is the 'in thing' these days. And that can only be a good thing, as more and more people talk about how they truly feel. And knowing that other people are struggling as well is helpful to a degree, as I know I am not alone. But it doesn't make me feel any better about it, if that makes sense?
Work
I keep plodding on with work. I still don't have enough hours, and I can't see that improving any time soon. Christmas is on the horizon, and that generally means 'overtime' so I'll keep my fingers crossed. We have a new manager now (the previous one was sacked for as yet unknown reasons) and she seems nice enough so far...
Other than that there isn't a great deal to report. I'm still trying to work on other ways of earning money. I managed to earn £12.99 via my redbubble account in the month of September... which doesn't sound like much, and well, it isn't much. But there was no work involved in that. The designs were already uploaded back in June, I just leave it running in the background.
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Graph Source: https://hivestats.io/@dannewton
Hive
Hive growth has still been pretty good. I powered up again for the PUD: Power Up Day on the 1st October which you can see in the middle of the graph, taking me from 2450HP to 2720HP.
The price of HIVE is still low, so I made the most of it by buying some more, and along with some decent author rewards I am now at 3200HP. The slow down in posting is obvious by looking at the right hand graph. I have been lacking motivation in lots of areas (not just HIVE) but I don't want to post stuff just for the sake of it. I'd rather post good content sparingly rather than posting rubbish.
Its probably worth revisiting my schedule and thinking up new things to talk about. As the year progresses, it is harder to talk about my fave topic (moths and other insects) so I need to see what else there is. The Fungi Lovers Community has been a great subject recently, and I have a couple of posts lined up for that one.
On that note I'm gonna wrap this up. I'll jot down a few targets, and then I'm gonna go to bed.
Tomorrow is a new day...
Targets for the coming week:
Health: Reset the 'fuck-it' button and get back into a more regular routine
Work: Get my head down and focus on the job in hand
Hive: Keep consistently posting and interacting with other users
Motivation quote
Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow". – Mary Anne Radmacher
Sunset on Mull, Scotland
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Mate this is a brave post. There is nothing I can say that will instantly make things better. But believe me things do get better.
I think everyone is feeling it at the mo, seasons/weather can affect people's frame of mind and this bloody Covid situation is causing more problems than ever.
I lose my mojo all too easily these days but little things can really help give a mini boost now and then.
I will try and sort out a trip to the Wave bud. Just not really fancying sitting outside eating in the cold and rain. But you know I am just a message away.
Look after yourself mate
I hope so... its starting to get a bit depressing (pun intended...)
I know a lot of people are in the same boat (covid looks to making it worse for many) There is always good and bad, but there seems to be more bad than good at the moment...
No worries about the Wave. I forgot they aren't allowing people inside at the moment. And as much as I'd love to be sociable I don't want to freeze my tits off in the process.
Knowing there are people I can talk to if needed is enough, thank you.
We all go up and down it's only natural. I am in abit of a down mood myself at the moment and find it hard to get interested in much happening right now. Evey day seems to blend into the next one.
The good news is that it will change. Whether that its because of something you choose or something that happens we will turn it into a positive cycle again.
Until then just keep doing what your doing. Try to get back outside as it does help. Keep posting on hive and let out the frustration on the page. I find it helps a lot. I know the price is low right now but that has never been my most important factor. It's the build that counts. If the right things are built the price will follow in time.
It's a long term game for me and stacking as much as possible for when everything does turn around for us.
That is very true. Change will always happen, it might get worse, it might get better... but change will still happen.
I have gone for a couple of walks since this post (with a camera and headphones), and the alone time and fresh air has helped.
Just have to try and keep positive I guess...