I don't carry mine in my hip pocket either. 😉
When my dad was ill, nothing else in the world was as important, my mom just couldn't bear to see him so ill. But , wven though people said to take care, I thought I was. I can tell the merry go round you are on.
Yesh... just breathe.
I sensed you had experiance such given your advance, which can only come from someone who has been there. Thank you :)