Hey, @galenkp.
Hope all is well.
Something, it seems, has changed with you or is in the process of changing—
I hope I'm way off the mark and totally reading stuff between the lines that aren't there. It's just that you've just been very reflective of late, and seem to have a lot of alone time. Certainly nothing wrong with any of that, and I'm very glad you're sharing what you do. I was just looking at your last several posts (roughly two months worth) and noticed that things haven't been very... something. I wanted to say upbeat, but that's not the word. Maybe it's more along the lines of something missing? Maybe that's closer.
You mention passion was missing from this post. You've also mentioned that the environment at work has put a strain on you in a couple other posts. Feeling lackluster or unmotivated.
Kind of reminds me of some of my two or three pre-mid-life crises. :)
Probably, it's me, and I'm crazy. :)
As I said, I hope all is well. With you, and yours.
I'm all good mate but thanks for saying something. Life is full of twists and turns my dad used to say and all we can do is take the journey. There's been times I've accelerated and power-slid around those turns and at others I've had to hit the brakes and be a little more cautious...It's all just life.
You mention work and I'll admit that I'm not really feeling it right now, but it is what it is and life is still good regardless. Don't read too much into it, I'm not suicidal or anything if that's what you're thinking - That's not my style. I use my writing to order my thoughts at times and I probably say enough to illicit responses like yours here, and not enough to give the full perspective. So few read what I write so I feel vindicated to write with impunity and simply for the sake of saying things out loud so to speak.
As far as spending a lot of time alone, that's been the nature of life for a long time; I'm a busy person as are others around me so it may seem that way I guess. I pack a lot into life though and have a pretty good one...It's wrong of me to complain about it I guess, and if I have I should stop it...Life is pretty good, the future looks amazing and I'll just power-slide around those curves applying the brakes as required, then gassing it again to race to the future.
Thanks for saying though...Bro's don't say this stuff enough, but we should.
Hey, @galenkp.
Nope. Wasn't thinking about suicide at all. I was thinking more along the lines of close relationships being strained, but you said all is good, so as I said, I'm crazy. And I'm glad that's the case. :)
re: complaining
I wouldn't say it's wrong. As you said, life doesn't go as planned more than we like, and sometimes, being human, that affects us more at certain times when we might normally just power through.
However, I wasn't really getting that vibe from you as far as complaining goes. You being a little more reflective is part of it, but something else, too. You feeling the twists and turns of life a little more and then sharing it might be it. It's not like you don't do that normally—I guess I was just reading an uptick in it and wondered what might have happened.
At any rate, I'm glad I finally asked. I've been concerned for a while and I decided I should finally break the "bro code of silence" (my term for this) and ask. :) Never was all that good at that particular bro code, anyway, which I blame on my mother, since that's where the urge to know what's going on and then talk about it comes from. :)
I'm not one to play out my relationships on social media, or any where outside of any particular relationship to be honest, and so would never allude to any issues here, even if they existed. People may make assumptions due to the lack of particular content they may be used to seeing however perception isn't always reality.
I actually really appreciate the direct question and the place it comes from as it shows a sense of caring and interest that seems lacking in this world we live in. Especially between blokes who tend to just clam up and hold it all in. Like everyone I have a past and some of that past isn't all that nice and so I have to deal with it...I'm just as broken and fallible as the next person and sometimes it comes out here in some words I write.
I'll tell you one thing though, I need a break, some time away. I'm off camping for a few days in May and am looking forward to zoning out a little, breaking from routine and not having to work the brain-cells in my noggin as much. That's not too far away now so I'm looking forward to the detachment - I need it.
Thanks again for your concern and for having the care-factor to broach the subject.