I remember when you had to put him down I think, sad times for sure! Thankfully they are still with us in many ways in our minds from memories and all that. I still remember when I put down my cat who was old like that, she enjoyed and fell asleep on me that one last time where she usually didn’t want to be held. Good memories of the little fur balls!
good memories indeed, but painful also. A thought of merlin can put a smile on my face just as easily as make me tear up. I'm sure you understand.