Hey Lem!
I'm glad I got to be inspiration for this, and I'm intrigued about this transformation you're experiencing. Harness those emotions and learn about them, because they are a big strength at best, and give you vitality, like you said.
I felt as if I had never, ever felt so alive.
Emotion and reason go hand-in-hand, after all, and are intertwined, even though western culture likes to glorify the "rational individual", but such individual does not exist for the sole reason that we are humans, but that is not a bad thing.