Venting regrets

in #life4 days ago

Most of my inspirational posts seem to be a message to myself. I write to myself and allow the other part of me to read it as if it was spoken by someone else. This topic "one day at a time" reminds me of so many things, especially when I was younger, full of life, dreams , and hope. A lot has changed over the years.

Just like every young boy I had a dream, I didn't want my early childhood programming to stand in the way to where I wanted to be, so I dreamt and worked toward being different. I wanted to but it seems life had other plans and I had little to no power about it, so I hoped being flexible was the answer.

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I grew up wanting to be an engineer, creating things was my fascination. But while I had a dream, I wasn't stubborn enough to hold onto it. A few rejection and discouragement from families and friends already made me think twice and soon I left engineering to medicine.

But it wasn't the regular medicine I knew but something different, a record keeper, a course I wasn't familiar with. And that's where everything changed, molding myself into a dream I didn't know. If only I knew better, I would have fought for the dream I believed in. I ended up with no passion for what I studied but a confused life trying to find a path that would at least give me some joy to begin with.