No one knows when the instructions will arrive at the heart and on whose heart, but what is clear is that the heart is moved to be better, then that is the characteristic of the gesture greeting the heart.
So be grateful if your heart often feels something is blocking and as if always pushing you always do good, because it means that's when God is touching your heart with His instructions.
And if indeed God has lightened your steps to become better, then soften your heart to always run it.
It's okay in the past you have a dark story, as long as in the present you have an effort to change, so that your future is more brilliant.
In essence, if you have changed, don't go back to the past, but look back just to make sure whether today is better or the same as yesterday.
Do not be too sorry for your situation in the past, because after all the name of the past will still be the past and certainly will be left behind into a memory.
It's just that you have to be good at interpreting it, make it a mistake in the past as a barometer for you to truly do repentance to God.
Because if you are well aware of the mistakes you made in the past, then naturally when you make changes for the better, then at that moment you will promise your heart not to turn away from them.
check your intentions to be better, because if your heart really refers to God, then of course everything will be easy. As well as your lag to be better God will lighten up, so that wherever and whenever you will God willing, you will always be moved to do good.
Allah will always facilitate the steps of any of his servants in kindness, when his heart's intentions really refer to him. And Allah will keep him in the religion, if the servant does have the will and effort to be better.