I'll tell you something. I spent a long while trying to gather my thoughts.
My artist brain is scrambled eggs. I have this thing about balance. And instead of trying to tip the scales towards one position, long ago I decided to just be the whole scale. Picture a balancing scale. These days each side is going up and down so fast, you can't even tell it's moving.
Calmly meandering along with zero chill at the same time.
Discovered I do have a lot of energy. Just don't know what to do with it. And tomorrow I might have nothing. I tend to trust my gut. Some days I feel welcome. Other days, quite the opposite. With no indication or nothing telling me it's time to carry on creating, I don't feel like doing it. It'll just turn into a pile of unfinished work and lost time.
I chose and would still prefer to retire, from all this. It has nothing to do with this place, the people, or anything other than me, making a decision I feel is best for me. I simply want a better life. That's all. And I hope I'm being clear.
p.s. every second you have a choice
Free will
This is more Truth than most of us can handle
I'm drinking Kaluha and coffee at 4pm and I don't give a fuck :D
But also homeless, totally out of all investments and funds now and chilled. So I guess it is a process of shedding after all.
Who woulda thunk?
Come dancing!
Big on Amazon and apparently Amazon did their offices with Faraday roofing here in CT.
Interesting times...
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