god dude! If we didn't have all those exchanges I wouldn't be so sure you actually exist or are someone's novel.
I know we disagree on a lot of things but you do set such a golden standard for humanity and there is not a hint of arrogance in your words. I always liked your candor and though I am nowhere near as busy like what I've just read, I have been taking on a multitude of tasks lately, doing my best to NOT burn myself out. BUT I notice that I have more capacity than... I should or something? I feel balanced and even invigorated doing more these days, and pouring my energy even into places and tasks that are neither appreciated nor acknoledged.
I am not a christian but it does make me think of Jesus a lot lately.
And for an almost audacious segway - could I be helpful in helping you surrender your current stated obsession with human evolution? That word prompted my truther heart <3 would you happen to be interested in the topic because you feel we today as human beings are the latest biological evolution from a single cell microorganism to a biped`?
I am asking because I got caught off guard one day many years ago hearing the actual case against that commonly accepted view and... I was free. ahahahaha. when that narrative collapsed for me many many other problems dissolved into thin air instantly, and i still have not heard the case since that would have brought the macro evolution idea back to me as likely.
blessings my human brother!
I appreciate your sincerity and offer to disabuse me of my misunderstanding, which you are certainly welcome to take a shot at. I've considered the matter some, and suspect I may be a tougher nut to crack than you might expect, though.
I also feel stronger and better when I am doing more, and I do think we underutilize ourselves as a rule. I'm pretty sure we're all capable of downright heroic acts, but just neither believe it, nor have much opportunity to do so constructively. It's very easy to misjudge our circumstances, or the motivations and purposes of others, and to take extreme action in such a situation can really be painful in retrospect. Just picking up a hammer or a shovel and pitching in just seems outrageous, in a lot of ways.
I realized that supply and demand are out of balance for me, and I'm overbooked because I'm too cheap. That's the problem with working for goodwill, LOL. I do really appreciate your kind words. I YOLO pretty hard about opportunities I have to do what I think are the right things to do, and I am experienced with regret (for some reason(s). Lately I woke up cringing about not taking my kids fishing enough. Such is fatherhood, LOL), so I don't want to end up some spiritual essence incapable of picking up a shovel or hammer and regretting forever not doing so when I had the chance.
Thanks!
I am always ready to change my mind but for the moment the operating assumption for me is: This place is not serious, it just looks that way so we play our human roles more convincingly. Sucks when an actor always lets on that this movie isn't really reality but a movie. lol.
I am happy to tell you my overload situation here came to an end abruptly yesterday, and the coercion involving other people has completely vanished. Now i am free to pick my tasks again myself, and do the same workload just the same. it is a marvelously busy time somehow. getting all our ducks in a row... isn't that what the american tongue says?
blessings from italy!
Congratulations, my friend! That is good news indeed.
Thanks!