I have been on this blockchain for a very long time. I have met some incredible people while here. Some of those people are sadly no longer with us. Some have moved on to other life goals. Yet some people have stayed, and I am lucky to call them friends.
It has been such a long time since we talked @snook which is completely my fault as I'm on the spectrum or ADHD or some such thing (undiagnosed as so many are who are middle-aged) that makes me just fly around the place bouncing from one thing to another, with a memory like a sieve. This means I even forget people sometimes who enriched my experience on steem Hive so much, and it makes me feel like a complete ass sometimes, although I'm self-aware enough to know that it isn't something I can help doing.
I'm glad to hear that computer games help you through your pain, I'm suffering a severe resurgence of my prolapsed disc at the moment and nothing allows me to function other than bleeding prescription pain killers, which I hate because they make me feel so out of it and it's so unpleasant coming off them when I'm finally able to sit or walk without agony or the risk of doing a nose dive into the wall because of a spasm.
Still, such is life and we make the best of things. I always remember you were one of the first three people in 2017 who read my 'Gelded One' short story and gave genuinely warm, and honest feedback. It gave me the courage to roll with writing fiction again after such a long period of writer's block so thank you for that.
Link to the comment: https://peakd.com/fiction/@snook/re-raj808-the-gelded-one-fantasy-fiction-20180202t044146860z
I'm not sure how much you knew what it meant to me. After years of depression, and creative block when you, and several others said "wow, that is a really good story." It made me well up I have to admit.
What this post comes down to is life is going to be really shitty at times. You will want to bury your head in the sand and wish all the horrible things would disappear. But life doesn't work like that, I am sad to say. If you know these facts, you know it is up to you to deal with all the problems that come your way.
Wisdom flows from these words ⏫ it is only us who can help ourselves when it comes down to the mental side of suffering.
For me, I have practised meditation now for over 3 years and although it changes nothing on a physical level, it helps dissipate the identification with suffering. It quiets the constant voice that screams and shouts 'why me' etc which has been slowly muffled, They say half of the problem with chronic illness is the mental side of it, so I know I've half won 😂 'Better than a kick in the teeth' as they say where I'm from.
I thank my lucky stars I took up meditation, as addressing half the problem and removing its power to control my behaviour is so much better than doing nothing.
Anyway, I wanted to say hi... and enjoy your session of playing The Sims High School expansion pack 🙂
I'm currently addicted to Century ages of ashes which is a game where you get to fly about on a dragon's back having aerial fights against other fantasy geeks from around the world lol
I do not even know where to start with your comment. You blew me away!!! I remember your story to this day. It was magical and one of the best short stories I have ever read.
Thank you for letting me know I helped you in some small way. I never knew. It proves that we never know what someone is REALLY going through ever.
I have tried mediation and do some form when lying down to sleep. Falling asleep has never been easy for me, so mediation helps sometimes. It never hurts :D
I am so sorry aBout your back. I finally had to get mine fused. After 4 surgeries, it was the only option left open to me, and I couldn't walk without screaming in pain, so I had no choice.
Have you asked your doctors to try different pain meds? For me, it took a while to find one that did not leave me sleeping in bed or so out of it I could not function.
I still have pain, but what I take now does take the edge off enough that I can feel a little helpful around the house. It is not perfect by any means, but it is better than being stuck in a bed all day.
I spent almost a year stuck in bed, and now I make sure I get out of bed no matter how I feel. That alone helps me mentally feel better.
Just before I went back to my old Doctor, I found myself in bed more and more, which was a HUGE warning for me to get back to the medication that was working for me.
We have to fight for ourselves cuz no one else will :(
Much Love and prayers are sent your way!!
And thank you again so much for sharing your writing story with me.
I am going to join @DreemSteem's @Dreemport Challenge this month and hope it gives me the push I need to start writing fiction again. Maybe look it over and give it a try. I reblogged it to my page. The first post is very simple to write about. Maybe give it a try. It can not hurt :D
HUGE HUGS!