It is always had to have such loss, the whole world is losing its significance and life seems to have no sense anymore. I know that because of my own loss and that time I was very young. I hope you have good family members around and friends. That helped me.
I am sorry for your loss and hope you have learned to cope with it. I can relate to how you must have felt, but it must have been worse to lose someone at a very young age. All of you have been amazing friends to me. Thank you.