Dear Isabella,
How are you? How’s everything going on? Are you still so possessive till now? Just wondering! Well, now you may think that why I’m writing to you after so long time? What’s the reason? Anyway, you will find it eventually.
Do you remember the first day I saw you? I bet you do! Because I’ve told you about that day many times. It was so special! You were wearing a red tops with jeans. Wasn’t it the famous blue star restaurant? You were busy in talking with your friends. I went there to meet an old school friend and suddenly I saw you!!! It was like my heart missed a beat!!! I can’t help but starring at you!!! You were looking so pretty, so naive, so promising!!!! At that very moment I fell for you!!! Honestly, no kidding, I fell for you!!! From that day, I followed you everywhere. You may have noticed me, may have thought “What a stupid moron it is !” . Yes, I was acting like a stupid. I followed you at home, at college and everywhere. Isn’t it the highest level of stupidity? Following you everywhere but not making a move to talk with you? Yeah it is ! Because I was so afraid!!! I was so scared what if you don’t response me positively? What if you tell me “Come on dude, you’re not my type. Move on. You have let it go”? I was literally so scared. That’s why I followed you for 29 days without talking to you. At 29th day, you came forward and asked me “What’s your problem, mister ?”. And do you remember? I was babbling like a child!!! I had nothing in my mouth. I was just standing still and starring at you. When with more aggregation you were going to say something, suddenly a blow came out of my mouth, “I want to be a friend of yours”. After hearing this, you were silent for a minute. What was in your mind? You’ve never told me. Then out of nowhere, you smiled!!! I was so scared. I thought you were gonna slap me for following you for so many days. But when I saw your smile, I was like, “wait, what’s going on here? Did she just smile or it’s only my imagination? Did my dreamgirl just smile for me?”. I was confused. But when you said, “You are following me repeatedly just to be a friend of me? Why didn’t you come and talk to me straight forward? Look, I don’t like cowards”. I felt that it was all real!!! Unpreparedly, I replied, “I was just a little scared that how would you take my friendship request ?”. You again smiled and said, “Lol, you are the first guy who’s scared of me !!! Chill. I’m not gonna eat you up”. That time I felt like a little relaxed. Because nothing happened like I feared.
Well, from that day our friendship started. You and I were in different colleges. So what? Everyday, when you step out of your classes, you would discover me standing there for you!!! You would be surprised, “How the hell you everyday manage to come here before my classes are over ? I just used to smile and say, “I have always time for you, my friend. You’re special for me”. Then you smiled and we walked to the coffee shop. We used to talk much more, you remember? We used to had discussions over silly matters for hours and hours. We didn’t get tired. Even we laughed at the silliest things.
That was a great time!!! But after remaining friends over 6 months, I decided to propose you. To tell you that I love you with all of my body and soul. To tell you that I want you for the rest of my life. To tell you that I need you by my side forever and beyond. To tell you that I will love you even if anything happens to you, I will love you till I die. To tell you I will be in your side till the time ends.
Do you remember that special day? That was 4th of December. I was planning surprises for you all day but you wasn’t aware of. That day, I was out of your sight all the day. You had called me 17 times but I didn’t pick up. I wanted you to miss me, to miss my presence, to miss my talking, to miss my laughs, to miss my company, to miss all of me. At the night, 12 am, I called you. First you cut it several times. Then with a disturbing mood, you pick up the call and said, “What is it? What do you want from me, mister? As you don’t think me as your friend, there’s no point of talking to you or other bullshits. I have no time for this”. Then I whispered, “Come to your window or you’re gonna repent it your whole life. I’m just a window away from you. I’m in front of your house”. With rising doubts, you came to the window. And as soon as I saw you, I had lighten the fire on ground. Then there happened a large fire saying, “I LOVE YOU ISABELLA”.
You were like speechless standing there!!! When I yelled at you, “I LOVE YOU ISABELLA”, it seemed like you woke up from a dream and reached down there running and hugged me. “I LOVE YOU TOO”, it was like a deep sound came from your heart.
I was so much happy!!! It was like I have won a war!!! It was like I have conquered the land I desire most!!! It was like I’m on the seventh sky and flying!!! It was like I have got the rarest pearl from the heart of the ocean!!! It was like all of my dreams came true!!! It was like I got all I needed in my life. Thank you!!! Thank you for accepting this worthless human as your man!!! Thank you for bringing the foremost joy of my life!!! Thank you for giving this piece of shit another reason to live!!! Thank you!!!
After that my life has changed forever. Yeah I do all the routine work everyday, but it’s like my way of life, my lifestyle are now different. All the things of my life starts from you and ends at you. You are my lifeforce. You are my lifeline. I felt it more severely that day when I married you. On that day our love has united forever. It’s like my soul has completed!!!
But now I have a worst news earlier this week. I have my MRI tested few days before. This Monday my doctor have called me and told me to come over immediately. I rushed there. There my doctor told me that I have last stage brain cancer and I have only 5 months left!!!
Hearing this, I’m not in myself anymore. It’s like the land has slided down my feet.
Darling, I don’t fear death. But I fear even the idea of staying away from you. I love you so much!!! I want to grow old with you. But now my fate won’t allow it. May be the time you read it, I won’t be alive.
So, I want to tell you a few things I’ve never told. Just in case, I can’t come to you any day, I want to say, “I love you”. Just in case, I can’t sit with you in sofa any day, I want to say, “I love you”. Just in case, I can’t wake up next to you any day, I want to say “I love you”.
I loved you then, I love you now and I will love you forever and beyond.
Your beloved,
Mark.
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Well written