Hi @exyle, life is always much shorter than we make it out to be. Every moment can be perfect if you just step away from the negativity sometimes. Your post reminded me of a saying where regret lives in the past, and anxiety live in the future. We really only have now, so why not put all of our focus in the present?
I'm sorry to hear of your passing clients, but I am glad that you can see the silver lining to appreciate your life just that much more.