Controlling The Creative Process

in #life4 months ago

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I'm really writing so I can get back to my shooting games. It's cold and raining outside. I finished a decent week to a decent month, followed by the salaryman's favorite holiday, payday. But what did the day hold? I could name some things. One year working at a good job. Some direction to a meandering journey of self-fulfillment. Fingers. And the decision to hone in on one subject next month.

A small part of me wants to drill down on reading. I played 5 hours of video games last night. Anything could've stopped me after each hour, no each minute of playtime, but I didn't. Worse than gravity, the pull of a significant other and a video game grips men into complicity. It's not a jab or complaint- I enjoyed a very strong record last night. I felt free. I played like the wind. My focus wasn't on any outcome, simply moving from one play to the next. And like the match I just played in Delta Force before this reflection, some things quickly came to an end. Still, I carried on.

I sit thinking about 7 options. They are:

  1. writing to my blog
  2. reading more of my books
  3. learning to code anything at all
  4. copywriting for my socials
  5. growing with my crypto communities
  6. cooking more food for fun and wellbeing
  7. writing a book about something or nothing

My Favorite Option So Far

would have to be 'reading more of my books'. It's unreal the amount I have lying around. Some started, some not, disorganized and disregarded titles, a few fiction picks and the one's I got yesterday from a retiree. He had a cool book about Tim Allen's story about going to jail for coke in the eighties.

I have some time to myself as well scheduled for my birthday, so it's not as though I will avoid all other subjects. But for the sake of completion, I will do my best not to distract myself with the myriad modes of entertainment at my disposal. I'm trying to do something.