I feel for you bro. Given your situation, I strongly recommend tapering down, but that's hard to do on your own. It takes a lot of discipline. Just going cold turkey can make you pretty sick, and that creates a lot of pressure to drink, and can knock you back to square one.
It's easier to do with some support, particularly of folks that have been through it.
AA is good folks and can save your ass when it's on the line.
Give it a try, at least. I've never been bitten by anyone at a meeting.
Being hard on yourself is how you got to where you're at. Consider that. Think that if you're kind to yourself, as you reckon good people should be treated, you'll take care of yourself - which it sounds like you want to do, by quitting drinking so much.
I wish you well, and hope you get to a place where you don't have to drink, or be hard on yourself any other way either.
Im lucky as i havent gotten the shakes and stuff from not drinking. been 24 hrs and not to horrible, just slowing down so i dont hit that point where i have physical withdraws.
Thanks for the kind words.
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Im not planning on quitting but the amount i have been drinking the last couple months has been a bit crazy.
When im only drinking on the weekends at most its not so bad and end goal would be 2 times a month if im just chilling at home or on steemit.
If im going out with friends thats one thing but just sitting around the house drunk is kinda pointless.
Bit of words:
Engage in another activity that you simply cant do when drunk - and make this your new FUN habit - so when you fall off the wagon you will be psychologically punished for abandoning your new FUN habit, and you will be much more likely to examine the dopamine of each and continue down the FUN habit path.
Examples: challenging video games, martial arts, a musical instrument, yoga, etc..
The key to changing habits is to replace the dopamine flow with something more exciting and healthy - for example: its much easier to quit an addiction if the next day you find a superb romantic partner that is not engaging with your addiction. The dopamine levels from the partner can easily replace the habitual need of a rush that was supplied by the substance. BUT - if the person hits the road, that person might hit it hard again - because there is no dopamine trigger... Thats why rewarding habits are good - stable habits that make you happier than drinking!
I agree, one step at a time.
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