I share a similar experience. I also have to go out alone in nature and be spontaneous every few months for a week or so to try to keep my sanity. At some point, I felt that I am a computer server on a shelf, just computing 24/7 in my tiny space surrounded by three computer screens. My friends have became distant and I even lost three of my best friends. I am more or less disconnected with the real world which is not so bad because I believe this gave me an outsider perspective on the real world that puts me in a better position to critique it and fix it (principle of estrangment). I see this as a temporary period that will pass. And we can come out of it with new eyes and superpowers. Then we'll probably have a not so fun period of adjusting and integrating back to society.
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