I am so sorry, @diabolika... You have my heartfelt condoleances, and I wish you find every bit of support and inner strength you need to get you through the times to come. I know this: some wounds never heal and this emptiness you feel may never truly leave you. But I also know that time will enable you to give that hole a place in your life, and when it has, you'll be even stronger than you are already. In a short time I've come to know you as a strong person with strong aims and clear ambitions; I have good hope you'll be just fine eventually...
But give it time. We'll be here. <3
Thank you @zyx066.