So 4 days since my last post, well this isn't a creative relapse it's just that I've had more hospital trips, new medications, new test results I have to wait for, and I've not been as stable as I should.
I've been juggling other work commitments, trying non-conventional ways to solve my conventional latest health realities, and it's just been anything short of overwhelming.
Some days ago, a friend accompanied me to a specialist hospital and she was exposed to the reality of the lives of people there, and even though she has some health concerns of her own, she couldn't help but panic at the realities of people in that hospital.
It just proves that there are bigger demons, bigger pain and bigger challenges, and while she developed some short-term anxiety over what she saw, it's unbelievable to realize that I've been having to deal with that anxiety for over 20 years.
Again, I have come to understand something: it's always good to be relevant to people. I understand that you don't always have to be friends with everyone, but we need friends with benefit, and if you cannot prove your benefit to people, even you have to expect their goodwill to be out of the goodness of their heart.
For example, I have a lot of people I wish to repay their kindness, and those I wish to be good to, even though they don't know me. I've watched them from afar, and wish I can show them some kindness someday, unfortunately I can't be good to everyone, not in my situation.
There will always be priorities. The person who followed me to the hospital had family commitments she had to focus on, but she cancelled and decided to come with me, even though I know I have been good to her in the past, I believe that people call themselves friends on the basis of "showing up" and not "I'm busy, work has been so tight, oh I can't even deal with my issues, I can't be available"
In reality we all need help, and while I've been alone all my life to deal with a lot of issues, I can say I've had the help of 3 to 5 people, of which I have wouldn't have been able to do it without them. While we all leave the world alone, people who makes the journey easier are the true gems we have in life, and it's our responsibility to also be good to them.
True friends are there through the thick and thin, and aren't too busy to be there. I've found in today's world there are few people really like this anymore, although I've always tried to be one myself. It's not until the tables turn and you're the one ill that you find out who your friends really are.
I'm sorry you're going through so much medically right now, it really sucks. I'm glad you're taking care of yourself and have those new medications to help improve the situation. Anxiety really can be crippling, I know and completely understand. And it sure doesn't help out that blood pressure!
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Yes ooo,there are true friends and good people out there but they are just rare to find
it's good to hear from you brother, I know its a difficult phases for you, don't worry you will come through it, I wish the world can really understand the meaning of friendship beyond just lips services....
get well soon
It’s not easy going through health issues and still trying to keep things together. You’re really strong for that. I pray everything gets better for you soon.
Yeah, sooner or later one needs some help, the problem is find someone that is really interested in help because of your friendship and not just because there is a second interest behind... I think you can count those on one hand
Everyone needs help at some point, and it's nice to see people who will put down their issues to help you out. I am sure you will be able to help them out in the future, and you should treasure those friends.
Reading this from you has really put things into perspective for me, true friends are those who show up, even when it’s hard and it’s powerful to acknowledge the people who make life a little easier, they are the best
Happy you were able to make a post, we love you all and we know you will get better.
So many people suffer with internal challenges that people can't see physically except you visit the hospital and see thousands of people that look healthy but are very sick inwardly.
God is your strength my brother.