I scribbled down some of my thoughts, and I woke and decided to scrap it. Perhaps I wasn't feeling as I was yesterday.
My mood is different from yesterday, and I thought that post didn't embody some character trait of my spiritual life. It's easy to understand that the mood can determine present-daythoughts, attitude, and actions, but when we feel better or worse, then the mood changes again.
I haven't been feeling jived or hopeful as I used to be, and this has affected my thoughts, state of mind, and realistic perception. This has been chronic for over two years and hasn't gotten better. However, I woke up not feeling as disappointed as I did yesterday.
Did anything change?
No, I just woke up a bit different. For what it's worth, I'm not ashamed of my periods of crashing out; it helps me to cope through situations, and I'm glad I even have people who tend to read them. In real life, I don't get to be so expressive; all I do is work, push through the pain and stress, and then come back to crash out on Hive.
There are good and bad days, and yesterday was one of those crashout days; thankfully, I didn't post that yesterday. I continue my recovery as usual; it's been almost two months, and I still cannot function at the level I used to.
While I'm so impatient to get on with it, I still have these little worries about how my anxiety levels bump up my blood pressure. I've been in so many stressful life situations, and I've been able to handle them well; unfortunately, it isn't the same anymore.
So once more I've added more pills to my regimen and been trying to find peaceful thoughts to counter my stressful moments. I have nothing to hold on to, but here I am again.
On the other hand, I noticed someone I used to know on Hive came back to post after 6 years of not doing that. They supported me way back in the early days, and I decided to welcome them back and leave some support for them.
At the end of the day, we're all we have, and sometimes Hive feels like that layer where we have people to tap into, maybe even become friends with them, and all that. So I want to use that opportunity to thank everyone who has supported me in any way, whether in kind or words or any other way. I'm grateful for the constant comment and support; you've been amazing, and I appreciate you all.
You should never be ashamed to feel bad, depressed or in bad mood, you are not going through just a flu or something like that, you are going through a nightmare and it's chronic, at least hive lets you express with the safety of anonymous
It's crazy lol, sometimes I feel like I need to lock all the feeling in and just go on like it doesn't matter, but then, I always come back to Hive to crashout. I can't help it most times.
and that's fine, it makes you express your feelings without implode on them
Your appreciation towards the people who helped you back then shows your value of character, the one trait which most of the people doesn't share nowadays.
It’s okay to feel crashed out, even I do. It’s important not to dwell in the feeling of being crashed out and just relax and let it pass.
I'm glad you're feeling better, that's always encouraging to wake up with a better mindset I find. Keep up the good fight and fight off the stress the best you can, not easy to do I know! I think we all have days like you had when things look grim, fortunately they don't last forever. Take care of yourself and I hope those new pills help out!
yeahhhhhhhh...... seriously man I think one of the things that helped me discover my ability to write was that I was just an introvert ... I rarely talk and if I do I'm scared people will laugh at me, but then I find my ways to always express my self whenever I'm writing, I can talk and just go on writing about everything I feel at that moment...
Hive is a global community of like minds, so it's us coming here to pour it all out, I would say hive is somehow your strong emotional support, atleast the thought of genuine people on chain ready to listen to your heart is a feeling that urges you to say it out the way it is .....and somehow that has helped you go on and on....
its just a phase it will pass, trust the creator on that
Quick Recovery man!
Very relatable as I'm also more expressive here on Hive than IRL. Some days tend to feel off, the mood isn't just there to find it doable to do the things what ones to do. Sometimes, I try to not force it and just go with the mood of the day, in my mind, I know it'll pass somehow, albeit it does take longer than expected, on most occasions. Keep recovering and getting better :)
Why do I feel like the friend after six years is me?!!😊😄 I may be wrong anyways🧘🏽♀️😊
But before I came to that part, I was wondering how you kept up on here @josediccus. How patient, consistent, die-hard and all beautiful things in my heart I want to express.
But my friend, we have gave all been on that road. You discovered your strength and it was you crashing it out here on hive, while for us it was taking a break for sometime probably years🥲.
I am happy I found a familiar person here again and I’m glad to find you here my friend. I wish we could reconnect on real life too but I guess it’s gradual process.
Thank you @josediccus for recognizing me after all these years and showing me love by upvoting and commenting on my post. That gave me the boost to write something again😊.
I see you and I wish you a very quick recovery ❤️🩹. Feel free to reach out for free nutrition counseling my friend😊
Sometimes I wake up and my mood is all over the place, and I used to feel like I was the only one that goes through that. Reading your post makes me realize I’m not alone. It takes courage to share what you’re feeling, and I admire that. I hope peace finds you more often and the heavy days get lighter.
Your mood is the determinant of your day, I use to wonder why some people use to have mood swings without any bad or sad reports and I understand that some have even thought of negative words and some use to happen as a result of hormonal changes or reaction in the body system
It's weird some days. Some days I feel great and that extends to everything that I do, but other times, its not.
I am glad to see that you found someone who came back. We should all support each other and it's nice to see them back.
Stress really is something some of us battle with, really hope you find a way around this hurdle in life.
Something I have gone back to many times over the years, first heard as a young girl with older brother. Yesterday was his birthday and death day at 69 seven years ago, my comfort song. Let it be