I broke my writing streak again. I have tried to sustain and maintain it for over 2 months, but somehow I always feel when I try, "What do I do?" I will largely blame it on my other jobs, but then I used to be able to juggle so many things at the same time without even losing touch.
It just proves how this illness has affected me a whole lot. I feel it in every fiber of my body, my mindset and mentality, and almost everything I do. I tried to compartmentalize my reality to understand that something is wrong and I cannot go at 100% speed, not that I have the strength anyway.
The human body is an interesting creation. So much more is tied to the ability to do things, but somehow we underestimate how the body works when everything looks 100% functional.
Physical recovery most times depends on mental recovery and vice versa. This is to say that there are so many layers of recovery that have to happen for the body and spirit to be completely whole. There are different layers of illnesses and sicknesses these days; you have the sickness of the mind as well, and sometimes this affects the body layer.
Sometimes I see depression as one of the leading causes of high blood pressure. Why do I think this is so? Depression creates an instability in the mind; you don't even need to do anything wrong, like taking too much salt or too much sugar or leading a sedentary lifestyle.
I was reading a blog post by a doctor who is a nutritionist. The man clearly claimed that depression causes body odor, and a lot of people doubted him. People tend to understand depression until they have to actually taste what it feels like.
The doctor went to on to stress that when the mind is stressed, it releases some hormones, and the other aspect of this is that people tend to generally forget the hygienic side of life when it seems they do not have any other thing to fight for, or when they are fighting a battle that seems too much for them to carry.
If it is your first time, you are definitely clueless. There are so many "first times" for events in life; some first times for traumatic experiences can be terrible. I don't know too many people with a lot of traumatic life experiences, because somehow I feel that these people are the ones who are qualified to either teach, advise, or procure solutions. Some time back,
I remember telling someone about what they would experience going through something that had happened to them recently. They thought I was joking and that it wouldn't be as I was thinking, but when it happened, they started texting me for experiences and lessons.
In reality, we can never know more than people who have experienced it all. There is no bigger teacher in life than what you have gone through for yourself, and do not let anyone deceive you. Do not let anyone call your pain a myth; your demons are not in your head, they are real, and that is because you are the one fighting the battle. Oppppssss, another record for a long post in a very long time.
Your health challenges are very real and affect your depression. The depression worsens the health as recovery time takes longer, it's a vicious cycle. People who are depressed do not bounce back as fast or sometimes at all. Traumatic events and pain are something that you have to deal with yourself, and those demons are very real. No one else will ever really understand, nor us their pain and demons.
Mental health is so very important to living not only happily but healthily. I was raised to stuff away the problems and ignore them, but I come from a different generation. Is it healthy? No. But it is what it is...
I hope you continue to improve and feel better and can keep that depression at bay. It certainly won't help your blood pressure!
I'm finally going to the hospital by weekend, I've noticed some new symptoms that I have to report to the specialist, and somehow I wish I don't have to go for fear of what I'd see in the test results. Unfortunately you can only treat what you diagnose, and now, I need to go.
Hopefully I come back feeling better rather than having bouts of anxiety.
That's good, much better to have a diagnosis and treatment plan rather than having more stress and anxiety. I hope it all goes well! How are you feeling today?
Going to the hospital in itself gives me a lot of anxiety lol
That I understand all too well... Just going in for tests gives me anxiety anymore!
The body is a perfect machine and complex but just one little thing breaks and it all fall apart... Stress also rises your cholesterol and also the cortisol which leads to high sugar on blood, you can eat healthy, do sport etc but if the mind is sick, the body will follow
Exactly, if the mind cannot catch a break, it's likely the body will not recover as well. That's why I'm mostly focused on trying to get better upstairs.
My brother, forget all worries, your state of mind is the most important thing when we are passing through challenges, any time am facing difficulties no how i always have a strong feeling that everything is going to be fine. And Thank God for your life, some people are in a situation that is even worse pass yours. I pray God will restore you full strength.
I hope you are recovering fine.
Also know that it's Okey to take a break, rest and eat well then you can function properly..
Take care
Depression causing body odour sounds very impossible to me, but I must say our mind houses many things and is the control engine of who we are or what we might want to be.
The body can break down, but I think its because you aren't fully recovered. I think everything happening isn't giving you any time to reach that point. As for making it every single day, I wouldn't worry. Your health is more important and I would rather not see you burn out.
I agree with this Joe
And I really hope for both mental and physical recovery for u soon
Keep fighting and trusting God !
It’s interesting to me how much the mind and body are so connected. Recovery isn't just physical I believe mental health plays a big role in everything. It’s difficult when people can’t see how deep it really goes until they experience it firsthand for themselves