First of all, I give thanks to God; He's good, and His mercy has endured forever.
It's been two days of not being active, and it's become a norm. Somehow I try to make a comeback, and then I retrace and go back and forth. I don't know when this is going to stop.
It's not like I don't have new experiences or content to talk about; there are lots of bumps on the road and so many experiences, and somehow it's been difficult for me to find the time, the pleasure, and the job of creating.
Unfortunately, because of being unwell and trying to manage my health and energy, I just cannot afford to push as I used to. Saturday makes it two months since I got sick, and life hasn't seemed to remain the same. It seemed like ages ago. I remember trying to work during the first few weeks of my illness, and it was too tough.
My partner at my hustle was threatening hell and all that while my body was going through a series of battering. Months later, I'm learning how to walk again and cook or mostly do other physical activity without getting gassed out.
Perhaps this is the reason why I don't have that sharpness I used to have. I have anxiety bouts, and sometimes I take time practicing deep breathing, trying to reduce my heart rate, trying to reduce my blood pressure, and trying to sound happy, at least to reduce stress.
Unfortunately I don't have a lot of reasons to be jived, but I try as much as possible to create my own sense of inner peace. Consistency is underestimated; anything in life can make you hit a level where you're no longer consistent. It could be heartbreak, it could be depression, or it could be an illness or unforeseen circumstances.
Life is the main reason for inconsistencies; sometimes people getting married or finding a new job might make them lose a streak they've maintained for many years. It's sad, but this is the reality.
Learning something you've once mastered can be difficult again; it brings back memories of pain and disappointment, but this is life. I've never been so inconsistent with my posting streak for over 8 years now on Hive, and it feels sad because I love to create.
Creating is something I do naturally, and earning for it made it even better. At my current hustle, I'm a creator, and even though the gig sucks, I know that my recent health challenges are the reason why I suddenly can't create as I used to without seeing it as a job.
Of course, the family needs to eat, and it's either that or nothing, and before you say, "Oh, focus on your health," I need you to know it's been almost two months on the sideline.
You know I once said you are one of those people I admire on Hive to be consistent for years without losing your streak. I have also been consistent, too in my over 4 years and even on days I do not feel any vibe to write, I still try to post something.
It’s not easy when you have to work to feed the family and again battling your health. That can be hard but you still show up anyway and that is what matters. Keep going, Jose. Just believe His grace is sufficient for you just as Jesus told Apostle Paul when he kept praying for God to take away whatever he was battling with.
May God continue to help you push through by His grace and while you are still turning up, you are adding value and that makes you a fighter.
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Hehe, at some point though, real life issues happens and people cannot continue their streak. Good to know I motivated you at some point.
I'm surprised I have remained consistent for over 8 years now, most people I started with are no longer active, and completely left crypto, but I'm convinced crypto is the right way to become rich
Thanks for your kind words
Yes, you are part of my motivators which I appreciate you for.
For those of us still pushing through the crypto world, God will crown our efforts, too and for those who have left for other reasons, I hope everyone is doing fine.
It's my pleasure, Jose.
I understand completely! Your family does need to eat so there really is not choice but to work even if it is detrimental to your health. Not feeling well makes tasks you might have enjoyed in the past seem like work, I've been there! You're doing what is right for the situation, it's just a shame that all of this happened to you right now. Life tends to throw us curveballs at just about the worst time possible in my experience.
I'm glad you're feeling well enough to get those basic things done more easily without tiring out. Keep up the faith and things will work out!
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Exactly, family's gotta eat. Sometimes I compare life to a moving train, it doesn't stop no matter where. Bills and all are the moving part of life that do not care. Sometimes I truly wish I have enough cash and only need to worry about physical and mental recovery, unfortunately it's not so lol.
But, my faith is a very important aspect of my life, and I'm happy for it.
Thanks you always, take care of yourself too. I guess it's been rough on your side as well
if the body isn't well nor is the mind, being sick and not feeling well makes every good intention fade away, i know because i had almost 3 years thrown in the toilet for that and i also had to work still being the only one employed at home, and i also have anxiety everything might return again... i can only wish you the best, hopefully in a few months you will be back, i think it takes months to recover from anemia and blood loss like you did, also stress consumes you too
Yeah, I realize a lot of my high blood pressure bouts stems from anxiety, because I eat at least 70% healthy and sleep well.
3 years is a lot of time, and even though I've spent just about 2 months, it's already beginning to look like ten years old not being able to live properly.
As for the anemia, you're right, but majorly also, there's a systemic issue why mine even takes longer. I wake up everyday wishing I can just magically get back all that blood loss.
What I noticed is that if you are ill and don't feel well, the time goes extremely low... Like when I had to wait a month for some exam it was endless... When you feel well it goes fast, that's the same you are experiencing... Are you taking iron supplements?
Can't take iron supplements lol, it's bad for my condition. The issue is with the red cells hemoglobin that transfers oxygen to tissue
so annoying, you tried different doctors? in case someone has a different treatment
I hope you get better soon. It never feels well to be sick, but life continues on. I am sure you will be back to normal soon enough, but it can suck that you can't do what you usually do or want to do.
Yes you might not be as consistent as you use to be but the little time you give, you give quality and value, I think you should always remember that you are quality and value yourself that would help to fight some negative thoughts.
Weldone, you are really trying, God will keep on giving you needed strength.
Thanks you so much for all your kind words
It’s not easy at all, and I truly felt your words. You’ve been so consistent for years, and I can imagine how tough this break must feel. But please don’t be too hard on yourself—your health really comes first. You’re still a creator, no matter what, and we’ll be here waiting for you once your strength comes back. Wishing you a quick recovery.
one of my biggest motivation on hive when I started, somehow I have learned a lot from you, I get it, that you want to but not being able to dye to some here and there, it's hard and you're fighting .... don't know stop, don't loose faith, gradually you will bounce back sometimes live happens but we keep forging ahead ....keep it up bro one step at a time I know its hard, God will see you through
I really felt for you, thank God you are getting better, maintaining a streak makes you becomes master at what you do especially when you really love doing it. When some life circumstances come and you break the streaks for a week's it always difficult to come back.
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Life happens and we find ourselves not doing our usuals , even when you try forcing it, your body says otherwise , yet...family needs are unending , bills glaring at you , you are fighting ur health and still responsibilities at the same time, it can be energy draining...
Sincerely , this particular health challenge of yours this time has lingered ..I didn't know it will take this long for u to recover fully but I am optimistic you will still do, and reclaim totality your usual activities
God's grace big Joe .
Wow 8 years that's so great. You really tried. I can understand how you're feeling but yet our health matters a lot, maybe you can just find balance.