Whatever we focus on and have faith will be what manifests for us. What we truly believe in, we get. If we take stress too far and think about it too much, we will live a stressful life. We're always changing; nothing is static, change is the only constant. "You only live one life" maybe we do, maybe we don't but while we're here it feels like the only life.
I've changed so much in the last 10 or 15 years its not even explainable.
i most of the time choose to be happy. have had people tell me thats the most annoying person in the room the one that is smiling and cheering everyone up while everyone is disgruntled. on the opposite side i have a deep saddness/darkness that is down right scary if you see it. i choose to let the happy show, at times the darkness does show but thats when i find i am the most creative. nothing like the taste of death to see the beauty in the mundane. i feel most people that know true happiness also know true evilness. you cant know what something is unless you have experienced the otherside of it. as we get older its hard not to be jaded by experiences, people, and let downs.