As a fellow sufferer of Fibromyalgia I have to agree that it makes sense that a body constantly bombarded with pain would eventually read everything as pain. What a perfect description. Though I experienced a temporary back injury, I can not imagine your pain.
Unfortunately pain comes in all sorts of shapes and sizes. Emotional trauma has also been linked to Fibromyalgia. Children are especially susceptible though symptoms may take years to develop. I believe that to be my case.
You have grit and a strong spirit to not only survive but to expose yourself in such a beautiful way. Thank you for the inspiration.
I so appreciate you speaking up @firststeps. <3 There are days when I wouldn't want anyone to be able to imagine what I feel. Not to give myself a corner on suffering – only to say that...it's too damn much and I'm grateful most people around me aren't able to feel it, even in their heads.
In fact, for way too long, I did my best to conceal it, in part because I didn't want to appear weak or be perceived as attention-seeking. Though I'm more honest with those closest to me about it, I still feel the strangest sense of guilt any time I speak about it aloud or am incapable of concealing the physical strain. I'm not sure that'll ever go away.
I do hope I've inspired you to also share your own story. It's vulnerable to do so, yet so nourishing to be heard and to know that – folks like you might hear and appreciate and, perhaps, feel ever so slightly less alone.
I also tend to hide my pain. It seems to be common among those with Fibro. I’m beginning to think that this trait might also contribute to our condition. I think we all need to just let it out one way or another. Whether it’s screaming, explaining, talking, crying, writing, singing, or whatever. Our oain needs a voice. It may not lessen it but I feel it helps us deal with it better.
I agree. shoving it down and trying to shut it up only makes it scream that much louder. Let it out!