Wow! Nice writeup.
Your write up just sum up all the battle going on in human mind.
Sometime in our trial we feel let down by God and got angry sometime. Only God know what some of us think about Him after going through some serious fasting and prayer and answer seem to be too long in coming not knowing or forgetting the fact that God's time is different from our time and God's time is the best time.
But one thing i have come to know is that God is not a wicked God, neither does He take pleasure in the suffering of man and most trial are self inflicted.
When we claim to know what is best for us than our God who created us in His own image and through His breathe gave us life, with this mindset we are bound to find our self in trial after trial unless we realise our mistakes, acknowledge it and surrender to God leading.
Impatience, not waiting for God time and claiming to know more than God is why many of us are facing trial that to me i called self inflicted.