I am a woman. I haven't had a love story with anyone for a long time because I think if I fall in love I have to be ready for a broken heart. After 4 years I chose myself because I think I'm not ready yet to feel hurt. And I think I will obey my religious rules that don't justify dating. I am indeed close to many men but I always consider them friends. None of them I intend to fall in love with them. And I think this is more comfortable. I don't have a lover but I have many friends. But as long as I'm close to my male friends, it's just an ordinary friend. There is no regular chat every day.
I am not a woman who easily falls in love, which is not easy to drop a heart to a man. I have a hard time feeling male. I have never felt lonely not having a lover because I have parents and family who love me very much, my friends and friends are very good.
This time I will tell my story that this time may actually be very short but gives pain in the heart.
At that time I decided to resign from my old office. At that time, my friend offered to enter my job application into his office because his friend's lover would resign and had a new job.
Finally I worked in my friend's office. The first day I worked I met the people who were there. But there is a man who goes to my desk because he also talks about work with my friend (who I will replace his position). Then I met the man. Why is it that from the beginning I felt something different from that man. When I returned home I also told him to my mother happily and actually I also told the unimportant. Day after day I went to work in my new office. Day after day I and he often talked about something that was not important other than talking about work. Until finally when I was on my way home I saw my cellphone and there was an incoming email from him. The contents of the email talk about work. Soon I opened and read the email, entered the chat from him who talked about the email. And it was Friday, then I countered as needed and he said happy vacation. At the beginning I didn't respond too much to chat from him and didn't want to be too close to him because I knew he already had a boyfriend. I am a woman who has principles that will never interfere with other people's relationships. Because I always think what if I have my lover and lover disrupted and approached by another woman I must feel upset.
The more we get closer and he often plays to my table just to say hello, joke and talk about things that are not important. Two months after I worked in the office he began to greet me often through chat. I still behave normally and reply as needed. Until finally we often chat until night but when he replies and I am asleep I do not reply to chat again in the morning. Because in my opinion we will meet in the office so why return the chat again. At first it wasn't too routine, we also chat together. But after a long time I realized why every time he approached the weekend he would chat with me. I immediately wondered if he would still want to contact me because during the weekend we would not meet so we could not tell unimportant things. For this reason he chat me because he wants to know my week at that weekend. A lot of chat from the unimportant and I still answer normally. Here I also still feel normal with him because I still think he already has a lover. But I always reply to the chat he sent to me. We are getting closer and even he doesn't call me again as "Miss". There is a special name for me from him and everyone in the office knows.
One day we were joking, chatting like we could laugh together, but he had to go to the room because he had a job. When the office comes home, I go home and he is still in his boss's room. When on the way home. There was a chat from him "bad, I was left behind". Why, at that time, I was very happy to have such a chat from him. Then I answered the chat from him, until late at night we chatted and at that time he said that there was already night's sleep, we continued tomorrow again but the next day I didn't reply again. He chat me again and actually every conversation we have in chat is nothing important. The more days we chat, the more routine and become everyday. When I did not reply to the chat he always called me repeatedly. For that I always reply to the chat even though the next day I and he met in the office. The more we get closer. And in the office we are getting closer and our attitude may be like other people like dating. He often invited me to pray together in the arena, he said he wanted to be my priest on my prayers.
One day he had to take an official trip out of town from the office. Before he went out of town we could walk together. At first he asked to take me to something, but he picked me up. I said yes, let's go straight to that place. He said I didn't bring the property for that, left behind. Then I scolded him for our purpose right, how could the property miss? He just laughed mischievously and he said we just took a walk. Finally we walk, eat, chat along the way. After that I went home and was escorted by him, after he left he chatted me too and repeatedly said thanks for lining him up. Repeatedly also apologized for feeling during the trip he talked a lot. The next day he had to go out of town and by plane departing early in the morning. He asked me to wake him up so it wasn't too late. And I woke him up. I'm not telling too much here. But we continue to chat. And when he was out of town he called the uterus. We often call in the morning and evening. And he is very very diligent in chatting me, keeps calling me in chat when I reply long. In the office even closer and in my opinion the treatment is increasingly unusual for me. I have never told anyone in the office about our routines in chat, our closeness. He always reports anything he does to me. Until finally when we chat I reply with a joking intent that says "watch out later you baper with me". And he said "yes, I won't baper with you, afraid to use bgtzzz". There I was happy and I tried to divert the conversation because again I remember he already had a lover.
After the chat he got closer to me in the office. Increasingly unconcerned with other people's views about us. Until finally my close friend asked me "you have a relationship that is not normal huh". I laughed and answered "no, he's just like that to all the girls". My friend smiles. But that day my friend chat and ask "are you really okay? The problem is I see you are different. Especially from the guy he looks like he is very comfortable and rich in love for you ". Finally I told my friend that and I told my friend that I was in this situation because I was bad. I'm bad because he already has a girlfriend. I'm sorry for his girlfriend. My friend says you better talk about both.
Me and him continue to drag on our closeness in the real world and chat. Even in the office he often chat to me, even though he is on his desk and I am at my desk. And when he had a job in his boss's room he told me he couldn't go to my desk because he had a lot of work. At that time I had a chance to discuss his girlfriend and at first he was just like him for a long time like he was angry. He doesn't reply to my chat anymore and doesn't look for me anymore. Even in the office he kept me quiet. The next day I tana with him "are you angry with me? Angry because of our last chat (my chat that discusses his girlfriend)? He said no. He is angry but can be with anyone. Yes, I said, okay, maybe I'm too sensitive.
Three days we didn't chat and in the office he silenced me. The next day he passed my table and held my head. I just smiled. After that he approached me again to my table but I was normal and cold. I told my friend that I didn't want to be close to him anymore if he wanted to be normal if he could move away slowly because he didn't want to interfere with his relationship with his girlfriend. The next day he approached me again to my table. I laughed ordinaryly at him. He with his fad as usual. But there I didn't expect to be close to him anymore. However, in the evening he chat me again. Instantly, my intention to move on is destroyed. But I reply normally. Weekend he chat me but at that time he doesn't read chat until tomorrow morning. Then I asked him why did I chat, read it or not. He said he was sick, not feeling well. Then I said yes, I was resting, I went home late then I was sick. When he was sick he didn't reply my chat so quickly and I understood it. The next day he didn't enter the office because he said he wasn't strong. But we still chat. The next day he entered the office but arrived late in the afternoon. He approached my table and I asked you what were you sick? He said he was dizzy, hot, etc. I can't bear to see him sick, I pay attention to him, I take care of him in the office when he is sick. At that time, I felt moved on, I was completely destroyed. I did not have the heart to see him who was sick. After he was sick I felt our relationship was close and increasingly unusual.
One day my office friends asked me. Not only 1 or 2 people ask. Are you dating? I said we weren't friends, he had a boyfriend. When I say that. Actually I feel sick. Somehow.
He never had breakfast in the morning. When he was sick he gave me breakfast. I bought breakfast, I got a plate for him to eat, my drink was drunk by him. The more we get closer. It doesn't feel like we're close to 3 months. 3 months but feels like 3 years. He is one of the people who jaim, looks wise and serious. But when when I am with me he is just like that. He became a super spoiled person, ridiculing, not at all to me.
The day I got more and more excited by our closeness. One by one, my close friends tell us our calm. I need advice from them about this error. But I never asked him what we really are?
I forgot, he also often said he was jealous if I was with my boyfriend.
The more days I became more confused with our closeness and I felt he was getting back to my chat for longer. But when I took a long time to chat with him, he always said for a long time, don't be busy. But I feel there is something different lately with chat he who replies for a long time and I also become lazy to reply quickly. Until a heart he chats me and I burn tomorrow morning and he doesn't ask me where I am at all. Even though he usually always asks, where are you? But this time not. I keep praying to God please give instructions about me and him. Until that time I did not reply to the chat and I arrived at the office he did not ask at all. That was Monday, I heard her conversation with my friend who said she would leave and would go home with her grandmother. I immediately asked him he was in front of my friend "I want to go home?" He loudly said "no". I said "yes you want an application". He still said "no". I am silent and bête with him. But he still approached me and tried not to make me btete and angry. That day I got a lot of work and made me overtime. He was so too. But I go home first. When I was at home I remembered that my cellphone charger was missing. I chat he who says ask please save my cellphone charge. But he said he was near the boarding house, sorry. I said yes it's okay, thanks. He answered yes briefly. There, I felt more and more away from me and I began to express all that. The next morning it was true he did not chat me and I felt yes maybe this was the answer from my prayer that showed me and he had to stop. I am sincere. Even though he doesn't chat me anymore but in the office he is still acting normal. No problem for me. Because in my opinion I would be normal when in the office we still joke but we no longer chat every day yes even though what we are talking about is not important. Until I go home he also doesn't chat me.
I feel happy because maybe he already realized that he had a girlfriend so we shouldn't be close and chat regularly. But when night arrived there was a notification from my cellphone and it turned out that he had contacted me again. He chat up to five times because I don't reply within 10 minutes. When I move on, it breaks again instantly. I feel so glad he came again. I was very happy at that time. Finally we chat as usual. The next day he chatted me in the morning and wanted to deposit the breakfast but when I asked he didn't reply. When I arrived at the office, I saw there was miscellaneous dai on both of my phones. I said you were late. Hehehe. And in the office he acts like when we are close, invites prayer together and others. When I want to go home he approaches my table to whisper tomorrow I leave breakfast, I ask. What do you want? He said yes, I'll just chat to you later. I went home with a heart so happy because he was acting like that again to me. Arriving home, until 10 pm I waited for a chat from him. Until finally I asked my friend one theme with him, what time did he go home? After maghrib. As soon as I was disappointed, I didn't think he was chatting to me because I was still in the office but I didn't know. He didn't keep his promise to me to chat me. I feel angry and disappointed. And at that moment I felt I was stupid waiting for a chat from him. The next day until I leave for the office he doesn't chat me too but I keep buying breakfast for him. When in the office there was a chat from him. But I was angry with him. I ignored him, diemined him and he persuaded me to continue. I was angry and disappointed at the attitude he did not keep his promise. Somehow I feel upset and disappointed. He asked me to spoil him and he said he would feed me. I keep quiet and angry with him. He ate at my table but I ignored him. Many times he asked me why.
After he finished eating, he went to his desk and chat me while asking you why? Bro, huh? Why do you crave? I'm just answering not cranky, bro. Until the afternoon, he still asked me why I was sulking and different from the usual day. I keep maraah and keep quiet. The next day he will leave to go home. Somehow my hunch says he will apply. I tried to find out from her lover's social media. As long as he comes home and when I'm angry at him, he doesn't chat me at all. On Saturday I open his lover's social media,
I found a photo of them with their family. Yes, he applied with his girlfriend. As soon as I'm disappointed, I'm sad. The next day I chat with him by sending the photo without saying a word. He also still called me as usual. I did not reply to the chat.
After being in the office, many congratulated him. I am quiet. I thought I would not congratulate him. After his application, his attitude changed completely. He doesn't greet me. Not just me. But all my friends. All young women in the office. He acted as if he didn't know me at all. He really doesn't greet anyone.
I was also silent, being ordinary and one of my friends told me when he was married. Honestly I'm very sad. After a few days I thought I should ask him. Finally I sent a chat to him with very long words. Not. I did not denounce him. I asked carefully what he meant by diving. Why, when I asked him, he would not answer the proposal. Why does he chat everyday and so on. But he did not answer all the questions. I told Adia that I baper with this situation. I'm honest everything. But why did he not admit it?
The thing that I still can't accept is that he didn't give me a word or two. If only I asked him if he wanted an application, and he said yes, pray. It becomes more relief for me. But this is not. If only he said goodbye to him, he might get sick but I think it's much more relieved.
Do you think those who read whether this whole is my fault? I admit I'm wrong. But is he also not wrong? Am I natural if I feel hurt by her attitude? What should I do? Of course pray and sincerity. What other treatment? Is he just playing with me?